Breathing Into Upcoming Changes

Signs of Impending Change

My stomach is in knots. I can’t seem to settle for longer than 2 minutes. I’m forcing myself to focus on things I planned to do with some success. I know massive changes are coming into my life now, and in some ways I’m ready. In others, I’m terrified; mostly because I have no idea what those changes are, or how they’ll impact my life. I keep reminding myself to breathe into the changes, and above all, stay out of my own way. I’ve navigated the upheavals before, and always find myself in a better place once the dust settles. Still, my knee-jerk reaction is to worry, and to try to control the outcome.

Meditating right now is an exercise in futility. My mind is going at warp speed, and refuses to settle on anything; not my breathing, nor my cats’ purrs. Every time I try, it shoots off in yet another direction, trying to figure out what’s coming. I know I’m probably better off not knowing , if for no other reason than I’d probably try to take control despite knowing it’s futile to try. Beating my head against a brick wall isn’t something I do willingly, but trying to direct the coming changes is too close for comfort.

I also know I’m not alone, being caught in this maelstrom of unidentifiable change. There are others equally adrift; travelers on a new journey as yet unrevealed. But any connections I make right now will be fleeting. We’re on separate, distinct journeys, unique to the people we are, and the places in our own journeys we’re at in this moment in time. If I wait a little longer; stand silently solo in my frustration and confusion, those who will be traveling with me when the wheel turns will be revealed.

Curbing Impatience To Heal

Patience has never been my strong suit. The Universe constantly challenges me to improve my skills, but progress is slow; painstaking; negligible. But progress has been made. I’m a trifle less impatient than I was a decade ago. Meanwhile, I talk to the safe person the Universe has put in my path. We share our struggles and our successes; the steps forward, and the inevitable ones backward to regroup when we stumble. Such is the process called “healing”. There’s no direct route through, but only steps forward and backward as we search for stable ground.

On rare occasions, it’s a boat ride on a calm river. Mostly, it’s trying to navigate a landslide with little more than a snow disc. Still, we always arrive safely at the bottom of the latest upheaval, a little more bruised; a little better for the experience, and another layer or two exposed for healing. That is the true purpose of this soul journey; to peel away layers and heal them. Yet, at times like now, it seems like my own, slow but steady progress is irritating the Universe, which takes matters into its own hands and flings us, willy nilly, off the precipice into a situation where the layers seem to be ripped from the psyche in chunks rather than layers; exposed for the world to see, and for us to deal with in the moment before yet another chunk of old, unexpressed emotions is torn away, exposing rawer, less protected feelings and traumas which have been hiding behind old trauma responses and wounds.

I guess that’s where the trepidation comes in for me right now. I’m feeling like a huge amount of healing is going to be expected of me in a brief moment in time. The Universe might think I’m ready; that I’ve amassed the necessary tools, but my inner child is freaking terrified she won’t be able to handle the inevitable pain.

Breathe in. Breath out.

So I’m reminding myself (and you, if you’re experiencing similar feelings) to breathe in and breathe out; to refuse to give in to the anticipation which is always worse than what actually comes forth; to allow the changes to happen however chaotic the process might be. Embrace the chaos. Allow the unknown to expose itself, be it bit by bit, or in a volcanic storm. Previous experiences, lessons, and healing have created the necessary tools. Above all, you and I have survived and thrived after each of the lessons we’ve been given. We’re not done yet. With everything we heal, we grow stronger and more capable.

We may not know what’s coming, but we know what the outcome will be. We will make it through the impending storm of change; stronger, smarter, more connected, more compassionate, and more capable. Believe it. Own it. Allow it.

Today’s mantra is: Accept…Allow.

Grateful for Everything the Universe Sends Me

My gratitudes today are:

1. I’m grateful for my safe person.
2. I’m grateful for the changes I’ve instigated myself, and the ones yet to come. I may not know where I will land, but I know I will land safely.
3. I’m grateful for learning I can’t fight change, and am foolish to try.
4. I’m grateful for those who’ve journeyed with me thus far, and will be with me on the next leg.
5. I’m grateful for my own internal warning signs. They remind me to stay calm so I can more safely ride the waves of change.

About the Author

Sheri Conaway is a Holistic Ghostwriter, and an advocate for cats and mental health. Sheri believes in the Laws of Attraction, but only if you are a participant rather than just an observer. Her mission is to Make Vulnerable Beautiful and help entrepreneurs touch the souls of their readers and clients so they can increase their impact and their income.