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Living in the Moment: The Power of Being

I Read, Therefore, I Am

This post was written to compliment an earlier Facebook Live video which can be found here.

As a lifelong, avid reader, I am constantly expanding my horizons through books I both seek out intentionally and those which get my attention in any way they can. Those crafty little devils have been known to confront me by facing cover forward instead of spine out on a bookstore shelf, but the more aggressive little buggers have even been known to drop fortuitously upon my unsuspecting skull. While acquiring knowledge through osmosis would be an interesting trick, my experiences must, for now, still involve moving my eyes across a page or screen.

I’ve traveled to many far-off places, both real and imaginary. I’ve learned new skills and learned of others I want to pursue. All between the pages of a book.

That is not to say that I don’t leave my own four walls and actually experience things first-hand. But quite often my interest is initially piqued by something I’ve read.

Expanding My Horizons One Book at a Time

While my personal library is a long ways from the meticulous organization of those found in most cities, schools and universities, I’ve made an effort in the last couple of years to isolate a few like-minded tomes. At the moment, that means one shelf devoted entirely to books on writing and related subjects. I also have a shelf filled with books on self-help and spiritual matters. The latter leaves things wide open as it encompasses everything from Tarot and Kabbalah to Spirituality, Laws of Attraction, and natural healing.

This shelf in particular has been extremely life-changing. The books here have allowed me to find my own version of Spirituality which needs only work for me. It has been vital in my quest to be kinder and more compassionate, and in the process of both healing from my parents’ suicides and showing me how to use what I’ve learned to help others.

The latest book in my perpetual journey was Eckhart Tolle’s “A New Earth: Awakening to your Life’s Purpose”.  Of the many books I’ve read even recently, this was the first which had me nodding over each page, wearing that “aha!” glow on my face. Many times, I’d read a few pages, then set the book down so I could think about what I’d read. Many times, I read the same passage over several times to make sure I gleaned everything I could from the words on the page.

If pressed, I’d have to admit reading the book was a spiritual journey for me, and one I wouldn’t have been ready for  a year ago. The book came into my hands at exactly the right moment.

A New Perspective on the Often Reviled Ego

From Mr. Tolle, I learned a completely different meaning of “ego”, and one which resonates more fully within me. My ego isn’t a single entity as I’ve come to believe, but all of the voices inside me which get in the way of simply Being. It’s the list-makers, the forward planners, the memorializers, criticizers, and more. In short, they are all of the voices which keep me from living in the Now.

Those voices are always either rushing me into the next 50 moments, or they are lingering in the past, holding on to things which may have helped form the me in the Now, but which are no more. The only moment I have the slightest amount of control over is this very one, the one I’m in as I type these words. I can no more change the next moment right now as I can any of the moments which are already gone.

Though I won’t always succeed, I’m working on making my Now the very best it can be. That means silencing the memorializers; cutting the critics off at the pass; telling the dreamers to let the dreams be without worrying about timelines, and most of all, telling the list makers to put it on the calendar and then let it go.

Because the memories will always be there. The chores will never stop mounting. The dreams can’t be stopped. But worrying about them can. We can live in each moment, even if that moment is taking something off our To Do list. We can embrace the miracle that is our body floating in an energetic sea of endless possibilities. And when we get up and do, it will be because, like the book telling me to open its cover and fall into its depths, it is the exact right moment to be in that moment of doing.

Being: The Ultimate Self-Indulgence

There is a special kind of freedom which goes along with giving ourselves permission to live each moment by itself without interference from all the moments past or yet to materialize. I believe we move towards our dreams that much faster and with less resistance when we allow the journey to move at its own pace. Our journeys are no less delicate than the transformation of a caterpillar to a butterfly. We, too can damage our wings if we try to rush the process.

So how do we know whether we’re going at the right pace or trying to force things? We trust in our feelings. If the process feels smooth and comfortable, we’re allowing things to unfold in the proper time. If we feel stressed, angry, uncomfortable, or otherwise resistant, it’s because we’re trying to go somewhere we’re not yet ready to go.

Now, when I feel the need to just pause, reflect, listen, or simply be, I honor that request because this moment won’t come back again. I allow myself the opportunity to treasure each moment like a single drop of rain dripping down my window, or a single grain of sand I find on the shore. Separate and unique, yet also an integral part of the whole. Just like you and me.

True Being Makes Us Grateful for Each Moment

My gratitudes today are:

  1. I am grateful for the moments.
  2. I am grateful for the things I learn when I’m just still.
  3. I am grateful for the times of solitude which are a perfect counterpoint to the moments of frenetic activity. Each in its own time.
  4. I am grateful for celebrations of life, of love, of birth, and even of death. Each in its own time.
  5. I am grateful for abundance; joy, celebration, Being, peace, harmony, love, philanthropy, and prosperity.

Blessed Be

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January 15, 2015 Tarot Spells: Opinions are a Real Mixed Bag

I posted a question about Tarot Spells in a Tarot Professionals group and got more than I bargained for.

A week or so ago, just for grins, I performed two spells out of a book I have, called, coincidentally, “Tarot Spells”. One was “for help in drawing out creative abilities, gaining inspiration and fresh ideas” while the other was “to attract money and prosperity from expected and unexpected sources.” I won’t go into a lot of background about how I came to have this book or why I decided to actually use it, because that’s not the point of today’s post.

Having failed to recognize any results from my spells, and, instead, facing an unknown plumbing bill due to a sudden leak which filled my kitchen and garage with water, I posted a question in a Tarot group. Interestingly enough, I got a call from a former client shortly after I posted my query, and subsequently learned that the cause of the plumbing leak was fairly minor and relatively inexpensive. I’d also caught the problem soon after it began and was able to get the water turned off before major damage could occur.

But I digress. I figured my post would be one of those things people looked at in passing, then moved on. Nothing could have been further from the truth! Many opinions were offered from disparaging remarks about using someone else’s words to do a spell to a woman who took offense because I said her story reminded me of the one about the man and the cow, to some very insightful suggestions. All in all, it turned out to be a very interesting dialogue and I even learned a couple of things. I also learned that some folks just have very strong opinions about using spells or Tarot or both.

What do I think, you might ask.

For me, anything which is even remotely connected to one’s spirituality is quite individual. You have to trust your own heart to help you decide what does and does not make sense to you. My response to the man who felt I was wrong to use someone else’s words was that I wouldn’t have used them had they not felt right to me. I also pointed out that people have been using spells written by others for centuries. I guess some people believe they aren’t effective unless you write them yourself (which, on many occasions, I have).

What, then, did I learn from this experience?

I learned that there are probably at least as many opinions on how to express one’s spirituality as there are definitions of spirituality itself. I also learned that the best advice I could give would be to follow your own heart and trust your own instincts. Others may have an opinion, and that opinion does have value, but you must remember that it is based on their own experiences, and those experiences are not yours.

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful that I’ve learned to listen to what others think but to ultimately trust myself.
2. I am grateful for spells which work, and the patience to allow them to do so in their own time.
3. I am grateful for a busy, productive week.
4. I am grateful for friends who stick together and support each other.
5. I am grateful for abundance; energy, friends, love, joy, fulfilling spirituality, harmony, peace, health and prosperity.

Blessed Be

November 19, 2014 Ask and it is given #shericonaway

Life is a series of synchronicities

Today, I went to see my massage therapist after a months long hiatus…but let me start at the beginning of this particular sequence.

Over the last week or two, I had put out the thought that I really wanted a massage again. My body needed it and so did my spirit, for many reasons. Part of it was the unique connection that has developed with my massage therapist, both through shared concepts of spirituality and research and because we shared a very intense experience in a healing class last year. I think, in hindsight, that just as the Universe provided a reason for me to contact her again, it had also provided a scenario which caused me to stop my monthly massages for awhile.

As we spoke at length about what we’d been doing, what we’d discovered and just spirituality in general (though is it ever really general?), it occurred to me that after spending many months in a very intimate, intense program, we both needed a break from each other to process what we’d learned about ourselves, the Universe and each other. We needed a time to use some of the tools we’d learned and investigate what we’d discovered about our own personal beings. We both needed time to follow our artistic, creative hearts. And so, we did.

As we came back together today, after the Universe kindly presented me with an aching shoulder and neck as an opportunity to reconnect, we shared our successes and our progress, but also some of what we’d learned over the last few months. A subject which has been of interest to me since my early teens (at least as much as I remember) came up in our conversation, and she recommended a YouTube video to me. Not only did she recommend it while we were talking before she did some energy work for me, she made a point of reminding me of the title as I was leaving.

When our Guides and the Universe feel something is important to our growth, they will do whatever is necessary to ensure that we follow through.

After a quick stop to pick up groceries, I came home and immediately brought up the video knowing that if I didn’t, the Universal head slaps would begin until I complied. It was very clear to me that watching the video was more important than anything else at this moment in time.

I have always been fascinated by people who channel, and somewhere, deep in my subconscious was a little seed that said I was needed for this task as well, but I had no idea where to even begin.

After watching only part of the video, I copied the link into a new blog post as well as to my Facebook page. I just felt that I needed to share it. Even more interesting (at least to me) is the fact that I had not yet written today’s post (I even double-checked as I was surprised at the discovery). It seems that not only was I meant to learn about this video today, but I was also meant to share it today and my blog post was intentionally delayed as a result.

I have, in hindsight, had a feeling for at least a few days now that I was about to hit a turning point, though there was no indication what part of my life would be affected. After watching the video which I’ve linked to this post, it is clear to me that the turning point will involve channeling in some way. I don’t know yet whether I will be doing the channeling or supporting someone else. I only know that it is something which is to become a large part of my life. If I were to guess, though, I’d say that whoever is waiting to be channeled will do so through me. But time will tell. I only need to leave myself open and available to the possibilities.

As I was watching the video, I was guided to begin this post, and guided to give synchronicity credit for my decision. Not two minutes after I typed the headline about synchronicities, one of the speakers began speaking on that exact topic.

Opening to the messages from our guides is the single most important thing we can do for ourselves.

In the past 15 or 20 years, I have, slowly but surely learned that my guides are there to help me, and that they will communicate with me in any way they can, often via emotions and their physical manifestations. It is only when we begin to follow their guidance that we begin to achieve our heart’s desire; that we begin to live the life we were meant to live; that going where we want to, accomplishing what we desire is simply a matter of accepting the help we’re offered after we’ve sent passionate messages out to the collective consciousness about what it is we truly want.

Now, I have to caution you that this video is not going to resonate with everyone. It challenges the concepts of religion and the One God, as well as the concept of Jesus or any other single being people are told to worship. If you will be offended by these concepts, I wouldn’t recommend watching the video. But if you can watch it with an open mind, knowing that you don’t have to agree with everything the channelers say (though I will tell you right now, there wasn’t a single thing they said to which I wasn’t able to say “Oh, yeah! That’s what I’ve been talking about!), please give it a chance. You might find your mind blown, just as I did.

I owe a HUGE debt of gratitude to my guides, Barb’s guides, the Universe and all who made sure I watched this video tonight. This entire process was the finest example of synchronicity I’ve seen in my life so far, choosing to quit my accounting job to write included!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for Synchronicity.
2. I am grateful to my Guides for giving me signs, usually small, discreet ones, but occasionally, like today, gigantic, flashing neon ones.
3. I am grateful that my life has been blessed by people who teach me new things all the time; about the world, about myself, about possibilities.
4. I am grateful to my daughter for getting me started as a blogger so I could share experiences like this.
5. I am grateful for my ability to indulge in an abundance of random acts of philanthropy.
6. I am grateful for abundance: synchronicities, gratitude, guidance, learning, human evolution, expanding wisdom, joy, love, peace, harmony, friendship, health and prosperity.

Namaste

November 17, 2014 Changes made and more coming. #shericonaway

Making changes brings even more opportunity for change.

As you know, if you’ve read my last couple of posts, I found it necessary to change the time of day for writing my blog posts to accommodate the crazy mental place I go at night while working on the latest NaNoWriMo challenge. So far, it’s actually working out well, so well, in fact, that I am writing a more prolific blog and feeling less stressed while working on my book because the two no longer conflict. Whether this change will become permanent remains to be seen but for now, it’s working.

In the spirit of that change, I revisited my daily practice of doing a one Tarot card reading. That, too, has evolved over the last few months. I started doing a second reading from Doreen Virtue’s Angel Therapy Oracle cards and tying the two together. Then I began noting the card I cut when I replaced the Tarot card in the deck to see if it added anything to the message I received from the single card.3f968-spiritualshelf

But over the last couple of days, I was inspired to make yet another change. Right above my computer monitor is what I call my “Spiritual Shelf” upon which sits my collection of Tarot and Oracle cards, the Laws of Attraction series of books, The Secret book and video and several other books related to spiritual practices.

Looking up at this shelf on a daily basis, it occurred to me that it was time I actually used some of those Tarot decks I’ve been collecting instead of just allowing their boxes to collect dust upon my shelf. And so, my next adventure began.

About three weeks ago, I began using the Wizard’s Tarot instead of my tried and true Spiral Tarot. About a week ago, I added the Steam Punk tarot to my reading repertoire, and finally, I added Pagan Cats. Fast forward to yesterday when it hit me that I’m no longer “feeling” the easy, breezy, the Universe is always in your favor flavor of the Angel Oracle cards. (nothing against Doreen Virtue, but her cards just don’t look at the darker side of our souls which, to me, is a very necessary part of our being. Without it, there is no balance.) Instead, I replaced the second card reading with my original and oh-so-comfortable Spiral Tarot.

As it had been close to a month since I’d read from the Spiral deck, I was caught by surprise when I got them in my hands and they felt like an old, familiar friend. Familiar as they were, however, I found that I had trouble shuffling them. I don’t know if it’s because they are a different size, shape and texture from the other three decks I’ve been using or if the deck was just telling me I needed to make an adjustment within myself to using it alongside other decks, but the only way I can describe it is that it was familiar, yet it didn’t quite fit.

Today, it was much easier to work with, so I can only assume that, cat-like, it was giving me a little bit of crap for ignoring it.

Trading Pilates for housework. Oh, joy!

After receiving a message from my Pilates partner that she wouldn’t be able to make it to class today, I realized that with my shoulder still giving me trouble (though nothing that a nice massage with energy work wouldn’t fix!), and a list of chores I want to finish before my daughter arrives on Friday for Thanksgiving week, I would be better served to use my energy to dump and clean sandboxes and vacuum and scrub floors. Heaven knows, I’ll expend sufficient energy in those pursuits to replace at least three Pilates classes! But thanks to the frequent visits to the gym, including those Pilates classes, I actually have the energy now! Funny how that works.

As my readings today really highlighted flexibility as well as staying on task, I believe I’m heeding the advice of the cards admirably. I also feel very strongly that the wherewithal to indulge in that energy work/massage will manifest itself very soon! I just hope my massage therapist has not converted her practice completely to energy work just yet! I really need those magic hands!

My gratitudes today are:
1. I am grateful for my willingness and even excitement about making changes.
2. I am grateful for the way things are falling into place with each little change I make.
3. I am grateful for a week with my daughter and grand puppy.
4. I am grateful that my son-in-law is safe, if overworked right now. I know that by his efforts he will achieve his goals.
5. I am grateful for abundance: change, time, opportunity, imagination, motivation, energy, forgiveness, acceptance, joy, love, friendship, inspiration, harmony, peace, health and prosperity.

Namaste

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