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Take Back Your Energy

Monitor Your Energy Levels Regularly

You’re an energetic being, first and foremost, yet all too often, you’re giving your energy away, and forgetting to replenish it. You find it exhausting to do the simplest of things, but don’t understand why. Sometimes, depression sets in when the business of life becomes one, long, uphill climb.

Most of the time, you give it freely, and to people who truly need help. Every so often, you encounter what I call energy vampires who suck you dry, sometimes with your knowledge and approval, but often surreptitiously. In some cases, it’s even someone you thought you knew, and could trust.

Energy vampires are becoming more cunning as Empaths and other energetic, compassionate beings learn to communicate with others, and educate themselves so they can minimize energy drains and protect themselves from burnout. Some are unbelievably patient and tenacious, even willing to invest a large amount of time earning your trust before launching their subtle, intricately devised plan to suck you dry.

Pay Attention to Energy Leaks


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Admittedly, even with all the experience I’ve had with broken trust, I occasionally drop my guard, and trust too easily and quickly in certain situations. I may be on alert with strangers, but not so much with people who’ve been in my life for years. I have to keep reminding myself my gut doesn’t lie. If something feels off, I need to figure out what it is before my energy is siphoned off without my knowledge or consent. I need to take note when I’m feeling unusually exhausted despite getting plenty of sleep.

In the first place, sleep isn’t necessarily rest, no matter how deeply I might be sleeping. My dreams will often tell such vivid, insistent stories that instead of restoring energy, they’re depleting it further, and will continue to do so until I locate the true source of my energy leak. Sometimes it’s as simple as needing my own space; my particular level of openness, my own bed, and my cats. Other times, I need to find the source, or remove myself from a situation entirely.

Learning from Each Experience

Recently, I had an experience where I was away from home, and woke up one morning knowing


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without a shadow of a doubt I had to leave, and to leave immediately. The feeling was so urgent, I hit the road with a cup of coffee, a bottle of water, and a few slices of cheese I didn’t even think I’d want. I did end up nibbling on a couple of pieces, more because I knew I needed energy than from hunger.

When I got home, I was still highly agitated, and had to unpack and put everything away before I could even fix something to eat, much less sit down and relax. For the next week, my sleep pattern was turned upside down. I was staying up until 3 or 4 in the morning every night, and sleeping until 10 or 11 the next morning. Thankfully, experience had taught me not to fight it. My body was slowly restoring it’s energy, and needed to do so at it’s own pace, and in it’s own manner.

Familiar surroundings and routines allowed me to look back and locate the source of my energy drain, or at least a large part of it. The source and intensity were what came as an enormous, unpleasant surprise, making it harder to regain my equilibrium and address the problem rationally rather than emotionally.

Naturally, my first reaction was anger, both because I felt attacked, and because I’d allowed myself to miss all the signs over the years. Clearly, if I’d been paying attention, I’d have put protections in place long ago. But this energy vampire was a breed I hadn’t encountered, so I had nothing in my personal arsenal to either shield, or protect myself from the sudden, vicious attack to my energetic self.

Focus on Resilience, Not Perfection


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It’s experiences like these which have given me the armor I amassed over the years, but this one taught me I still have a great deal to learn, and that as I get smarter, so do those who seek to tap into my energy field, and to take advantage of Empaths in general for what we too often give away without question.

Giving, helping, healing. They’re all part and parcel of an Empath’s or other sensitive person’s nature. It’s only through painful experience you learn to be more discerning, and to hold back until you are convinced the protections you have in place are sufficient for the situation you’re in. Yet time after time, you get blindsided because greed doesn’t take a holiday. You’re learning to recognize energy vampires, and others who’ll abuse your trust, but those who thrive by draining other peoples’ energy don’t stop learning either.

Each time you succumb, you’ll promise yourself you won’t get fooled again, but as much as you need to recharge regularly, the energy vampire needs to drain you and others like you. They don’t know how to recharge themselves, and must depend on the naive, the unsuspecting, and the unwilling to fulfill their needs. Sadly, they don’t lack for victims and flit from one to another like a bee to flowers. Which flower doesn’t matter to them as long as it yields the desired sustenance.

Support Yourself to Support Others

But why are they willing to take the time to cultivate some while ignoring others? What qualitiessupport yourself lead them to believe the reward will be worth the effort, and the patience? Who or what is meeting their energy needs while they wait?

They’re questions I’ve yet to figure out, though I’ve fallen for the scams more than once in this lifetime. At times, I’m only collateral damage, and am doubly frustrated because someone I care for was the primary target, and there’s nothing I can do to support or protect them. The truth is, the best you can do is support and protect ourselves, learning from each painful lesson, and holding space in support of others who are healing from lessons of their own.

You can’t support others unless you’re healthy and strong yourself, which makes it doubly important to not only learn to recognize when your energy is low, but establish regular and consistent practices to restore and recharge.

I can’t stress enough how important it is to make time for yourself; to meditate, garden, cook, sew, or anything you can do alone that brings you peace. The key is to remove yourself from anyone and anything that drains you so you can refill your own well of energy in your own space and time. Only then can you follow your natural inclination to love, support, and heal.

Grateful for All Lessons That Come My Way

My gratitudes today are:

  1. I’m grateful for the lessons I’ve learned, and the tests my trust has endured. They all temper the original being I was, making me both strong and resilient.
  2. I’m grateful for friends and family who understand my need for regular solitude.
  3. I’m grateful for healthy practices that allow me to recharge and restore my own well of energy.
  4. I’m grateful for the lessons I’ve learned that have taught me how to protect my own energy. I may still have a lot to learn, but I’m no longer a free-flowing source for anyone who comes along.
  5. I’m grateful for abundance; love, joy, friendship, lessons, change, experience, peace, balance, health, harmony, philanthropy, and prosperity.



About the Author

Sheri Conaway is a Holistic Ghostwriter, and an advocate for cats and mental health. Sheri believes in the Laws of Attraction, but only if you are a participant rather than just an observer. Her mission is to Make Vulnerable Beautiful and help entrepreneurs touch the souls of their readers and clients so they can increase their impact and their income.

If you’d like to have her write for you, please visit her Hire Me page for more information. You can also find her on Facebook Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author or in her new group, Putting Your Whole Heart Forward

Comfort Found in Daily Routines

Daily Routines Keep Us Grounded Amidst the Chaos

2018 has taken some uncomfortable, and even downright painful turns in the last couple of months of the year. Although we managed to have a wonderful after-Thanksgiving feast in November, and some love-filled dance nights in December, I’ve joined the many who are going to be happy to say good-bye to 2018. Too much was lost, some temporarily, and some devastatingly permanent.

Through it all, I’ve taken comfort in daily routines which, no matter what else is happening, are a manageable and controllable part of my days. Like everything else in life, we can do no more than take it one step, one minute at a time. Falling back on the familiar helps me get through some of the minutes which are harder than others.

Morning Pages: Routine for a Lifetime

My now 2+ year practice of writing morning pages has become more than just a routine. It is a lifeline inScrappy Doo a life which has, more often than not in recent days, been chaotic and outside any control I might want or need to exercise. Whether I rise with the alarm at 8 or let myself sleep in until 9 or 10, my first stop every morning is my desk where I pick up pen and paper and write for about 30 minutes.

Part of the routine is Dylan sitting beside me purring or flicking his tail across the page to let me know he needs attention. Sometimes Scrappy joins me, especially if I put a Ricola in my mouth; he seems to find menthol as addicting as catnip. The challenge is to write with a cat rubbing himself against my face in inebriated bliss. Regardless of the disruptions and interruptions, I finish those three pages daily (with the rare miss) without fail.

Doing What I Must So I Can Do As I Please

The rest of the non-negotiable morning duties include making the bed, feeding the cats, and putting in my contacts. After that, the day is mine to do with as scheduled, or occasionally, as I please.

The “as I please” part has been my practice for the last couple of weeks, leaving many of the scheduled tasks on my Trello boards undone. In years past, I’d be beating myself up over what I’ve left undone, fretting over making deadlines and meeting goals. But these days, I know my time is more flexible, and my ability to put in a few long days to make up for days I devoted to self-care has always been there when I needed to tap into the energy and focus.

Even when I worked for others, no matter what they threw at me, I met or beat my deadlines. For a long time, I failed to meet deadlines which only affected myself and my business. One day I realized I’m my most important client and, as such deserve to have my deadlines met or beaten as well.

Allowing for Flexibility

That isn’t to say life’s challenges don’t cause slippages, but as my mentor, Linda Clay tells me repeatedly, I can re-set the deadlines and forge ahead. Spending time beating myself up over those missed or extended deadlines serves no one, and keeps me from making and executing new plans.

Nearly a year ago, I planned to finish and publish “Life Torn Asunder”. Today, I’m looking at about 15 more chapters to re-write, and know it won’t be my final re-write. I also need to work on a synopsis and the rest of the information I need to pitch it to a publisher or agent. I know they won’t happen until they become a card on my Trello board.

For years, I had a written or Excel-based To-Do list. I’ve found it worked great for things like gym visits I was trying to establish as routines, but not so great for long-term projects like book re-writes and regular blog postings. I also learned having an event pop up on my phone reminding me to check the Trello boards daily helped keep me focused on the tasks I’ve committed to.

One thing I’ve learned about routines, be they daily, weekly, or monthly, is you need to allow for some flexibility. Like friendship, routines fall into three categories; a season, a reason, or a lifetime. There are only a few which fall into my “lifetime” category these days, though many only started within the last five years, and some just this year.

Routines for a Lifetime, a Reason, or a Season

Those include daily writing, making my bed, going to the gym three times a week, and writing regular blog posts. Even the last one keeps evolving. First it was once a week, then twice, now thrice. My goal is to add a similar routine for at least five clients a month so they can put their effort into building their business instead of creating content to attract clients for them to talk to. Again, this is where Linda comes in. We have weekly calls where she helps me find focus, kicks my butt, or helps me add items to my To-Do list. I also get to do some writing for her, and she’s someone I greatly admire both personally and professionally. Writing for her is the cherry on my hot fudge sundae.

My “reason” category includes things like the components for my book pitch, a long-delayed will, preparations for our after-Thanksgiving feast—the list goes on, and changes as my life expands.

“Season” is a little tougher as I enter tasks I expect to be ongoing, or perhaps, short-term, and their nature changes. Yet this is where a lot of my lessons are learned and experience gained. It might be a one-off client who needs documentation for a divorce, or someone who responded to one of my specials, and didn’t ask for anything beyond the initial tasks. Or maybe they did and became a long-term client. Either way, I’ve learned I don’t usually know whether a season task will become more, or will die on the vine until the task is completed. Sometimes they disappear for months, only to reappear when I least expect it.

Sowing Seeds to Grow New Routines

Through it all, I, like everyone else, sow seeds. Some I’ll nurture and help them grow into something to feed my soul, and hopefully a few others. Some will thrive in spite of any attention or neglect I pay them. Others will surprise me either with the fruit they bear, their tenacity, or their ability to entwine themselves into my life, creating new and exciting challenges and routines. A few will either die out or fail to sprout at all.

All of the scenarios are perfect in my mind. Not all the seeds we plant are meant to feed or inspire us. Some will even lie dormant for a long time, leading us to believe they’ve died out when in truth, they were simply waiting for their time in the sun. Those seeds are smarter than we are in that they know when it’s their time, and when it’s not.

I’m guilty of shiny object syndrome a great deal of the time (if you haven’t already figured that out while reading a post that meanders from topic to topic with no recognizable point) so I’m prone to tossing a lot of seeds into the ground just to see what they’ll do. For many, I’m less concerned about the outcome and more about the experiment I’m running. I’ll sit and watch people for the same reason. There’s a lot to be gained by watching and waiting, so long as you don’t spend your life solely in that mode.

Honoring Our Need for Times of Rest Monk Kidd wrote about the value of watching and waiting in her book “When the Heart Waits”. She compared herself to a caterpillar who has spun a cocoon. There’s no rushing the process of evolving from a caterpillar to a butterfly. Sometimes, we have to sit back and wait for things to line up properly, or rest after a long, concentrated push. Those waiting periods are as important, or more so than the periods of frenetic activity which often precedes them.

I realized this week I’d neglected my reading for quite some time. Not just books to expand my skills or knowledge, but those by writers whose story-telling skills I admire. After spending a day reading one of the Mercedes Lackey books I found at the $5 book store while seeking my daughter’s and son-in-law’s annual Christmas books, I realized I need to add reading time to my daily schedule. For me, reading for an hour is on the same level of importance as daily meditation. That too has fallen by the wayside a bit in recent weeks.

Routines Should Never Become Straight Jackets

I think the most important thing I’ve learned about regular routines we create and set is we must allow Created with Canvafor flexibility. We can’t beat ourselves up when our schedule goes sideways for a little while. Sometimes we have to step back and deal with what life is throwing at us, even if it means missing a few meditations, gym days, or even writing time. When we do, it gives us a chance to take a hard look at what we’ve deemed important to make sure it still is. It also gives us a chance to look at what we’ve forgotten about, and what needs to be added back into our life.

Most of all, it’s important to remember we are evolving beings. When we step back and look at our routines, we’ll find some are still valuable while others have outlived their usefulness. We’ve gained the lesson and need to let go to make space for something else. Those are the seeds which lay dormant for awhile until we were ready to let go of something, harvest the crop, and turn the soil again.

The short days and long nights of winter when the leaves have left the trees and the ground is resting is a good time to review our routines, turn our soil, and rest. It’s also a good time to go within and just listen without judgement, plan, or goal. You might be surprised by what comes up when you quiet your mind.

Gratitude: A Routine for a Lifetime

My gratitudes today are:

  1. I am grateful for the things I’m learning about myself from my friends.
  2. I am grateful for the time to quiet my mind, listen to my heart and gut, and find new directions.
  3. I am grateful for the variety in my days; some are quiet and introspective, some are productive, some, even chaotic. But overall, it’s balanced.
  4. I am grateful for balance, and the ability to recognize when I need more of one thing and less of another.
  5. I am grateful for abundance; friendship, connection, joy, vulnerability, authenticity, deep conversations, new connections, lessons, challenges, peace, harmony, health, philanthropy, and prosperity.

Love and Light


About the Author

Sheri Conaway is a writer, blogger, ghostwriter, and advocate for cats. Sheri believes in the Laws , of Attraction, but only if you are a participant rather than just an observer. Her mission is to Make Vulnerable Beautiful and help entrepreneurs touch the souls of their readers and clients so they can increase their impact and their income. If you’d like to have her write for you, please visit her Hire Me page for more information. You can also find her on Facebook Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author or in her new group, Putting Your Whole Heart Forward

February 16, 2015 Inclined to rest a lot

Grateful for a couple of days to just rest and think

I know that anyone with children in the house would kill for a day like my last two, just relaxing, sleeping in, getting a few minor chores done, cuddling with the cats, reading and playing computer games. But before you start reaching for the sharp objects, let me assure you that when I do get these days, I know that I’d best take advantage of them because sure as the Universe loves to give me head slaps, there’s something coming that is going to kick my complacent butt from here to China if I haven’t gotten the message and buckled the industrial size seat belts. When I get a couple of days in which I can disconnect, open my office window to gentle breezes and moderate temperatures (which, by our local standards means anywhere between about 68 and 75 degrees), listen to the birds chirping and the cats chirping back, I know that the pace of life and the world’s expectations of me and my time are about to drag me into warp drive.

I may no longer have children to chase or shlep from one activity to the next, but I do have writing to keep up with, a web page to somehow turn into a work of art, an interview to write for said web page and editing to accomplish based on critiques I’m receiving. There are also expectations for my small accounting business and the usual chores to do and bills to pay. Around here, if I don’t do the chores, they don’t get done, it’s as simple as that. And Dylan makes it very clear that empty food or water bowls and full sandboxes are simply not acceptable to his meticulous self. He also takes issue with me spending too much time in front of the computer and has taken to laying on my mouse hand with claws slightly extended into my hand to express his displeasure. But he’s also the very best of company when I’m reading or resting or just don’t want to deal with humanity, singularly or as a whole at the moment.

Significant seismic activity around the “Ring of Fire” are not helping

I’ve always been particularly sensitive to earthquakes, especially the larger ones in the vicinity of my home. In the last few days, the earthquake maps for the Pacific Ocean region have been lit up like the proverbial Christmas tree with Japan and Australia seeing the worst of it…so far. Hereabouts, we’ve had a whole lot of smaller shakers, of the 3 and below variety. Natives don’t even think of those as earthquakes and in a lot of cases, we don’t even feel them. But right now, I’m feeling anxious and twitchy in spite of a very relaxing day, so I know that something at least the magnitude of a large earthquake is waiting in the wings until just the right time to get my attention in a most magnificent way.

I do take these warnings very seriously, and have taken steps to get some things out of the way before my life becomes a classic example of theatre of the absurd. Though with careful preparation, I may not be running behind the cart, trying to keep up, I will certainly be holding on to the edges, doing my best to keep from being slammed from one side to the other and, believe it or not, enjoying the heck out of the wild ride.

Too much of anything is bad for the soul and that includes quiet

My life has been pretty calm and predictable for longer than usual and I’ve started getting into some less than spectacular habits, so it really is time for at least a little shaking up. But I know from experience that the Universe seldom gives me just a little of anything, so I did a little extra clutter clearing over the last couple of weeks in preparation for an avalanche of tasks and projects. Worst case scenario, my inklings are off base and I just wind up with more time to work on the two novels and a children’s book I have in progress as well as time to really learn how to make WordPress work for me and my fledgling website.

Either way, stay tuned for the fun. It’s bound to have huge doses of humor if nothing else. As I see it, laughter is always a good thing!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for warnings.
2. I am grateful for calm, quiet, peaceful, human-less days.
3. I am grateful that my life has a lot less clutter these days which allows me to respond to changes more easily.
4. I am grateful for interesting dreams as they may some day find themselves between the pages of a book.
5. I am grateful for abundance; peace and quiet, love, beauty, temperate days, restful nights, friendship, dancing, exercise, health, harmony and prosperity.

Blessed Be

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