Reveling in the Small Stuff
I’m spending a lot more time with my own thoughts lately. It would be easy to let them take me down a long dark tunnel into a deep, gloomy abyss of self-pity. Once, I would have succumbed. Thankfully, I left that woman far behind, and none too soon. Now I use the time to think about the many things I have to appreciate; the many things that make my life and world a beautiful place even when I’m spending most of it alone for the moment. Here are a few of my mini revelations:
- Tomorrow is often soon enough
- Digging in the dirt is cathartic
- Birdsong is the only music I need when I’m working outside
- Getting a good workout doesn’t have to mean lifting a bunch of inert weights or riding a machine to nowhere
- Patience is easier to achieve than I thought
- There are days I just have to do nothing, and that’s OK
- Being creative about how I stay connected with friends and family helps everyone
- Sitting on the couch with a cat on my lap is often the best thing I can do for self-care
- Being an introvert is a huge advantage. It doesn’t mean I’m always OK with being alone, but I can do it for a lot longer without going crazy.
- Living alone is more of an advantage than a disadvantage. I don’t have to live with anyone’s quirks but my own and those of my cats.
- Without people around, it’s unlikely I’ll become homicidal
- My life moved faster than I realized
- Slowing down doesn’t mean I don’t accomplish anything. In fact, in many ways, I accomplish more, especially when it comes to things I’ve been putting off for a long time.
- Sometimes just showing up with a list of gratitudes or a Facebook Live can make a difference for someone else
- Gargling with ACV and warm water really does clear out the goop in my throat the allergies deposit, thereby stopping the resultant cough.
- The sound of Dylan’s (my cat) snore is one of the most comforting sounds I know
Shifting the Journey Inward
Nowadays, going inward is more a journey of discovery. I get to learn things about myself that were hidden in the normal hustle and bustle of my life. Staying home instead of going to the gym or dancing on specified days leaves me lots of time for introspection. The good news is, I really like what I’m discovering.
Sure, the first couple of weeks were hard. I didn’t quite know what to do with myself, and spent my days wandering around the house, plopping in front of the TV, and playing games on the computer. I couldn’t even manage to keep up with my blog writing or anything else that could be considered productive.
Yet it was time spent inside my head that actually cleared the fog and inspired me to start writing again, add some kind of physical activity to my days, resume my regular stretching exercises, and more. I discovered I’m not truly happy unless I can look back on my day and see that I’ve accomplished something, even if it’s tiny. As long as I’ve made progress, I feel happy and fulfilled.
Progress is Progress, No Matter How Small
Some days, that progress might be as simple as brushing my teeth, taking my supplements, and washing my face. Others, I clear another swath of weeds from the planter in my front yard, or vacuum and mop my floors. The more I focus on making my world a little brighter, the more I seem to achieve.
My sleep schedule has been turned on its ear lately which means I don’t really get going until 10 or 11 most days. Still, I’m able to work on a blog post or two nearly every day, post a list of gratitudes to Facebook, and even do a video. As an added bonus, doing the video ensures I brush my teeth, take my supplements, wash my face, and get dressed every day.
I’m learning one small change has a snowball effect, and soon, becomes a larger, more all-encompassing change for the better. There was a time I’d have said If I have to do all of those things before I can do a video, I’ll just pass on it. Now, I realize, it’s not a case of “have to” at all. I get to indulge in some personal care, and I get to show up every day for my friends and anyone else who’s interested. It is such a gift to be able to show up and give a little pep talk every day. How I ever saw it as a chore, I don’t know.
Movement and Momentum Are Relative
I’m fortunate in having my perspective change a little every day. I may not know where my next client will come from, or what they’ll require, and the stock market is in the toilet at the moment, though there’s still hope as far as I’m concerned. What I do know is getting to show up every day to try to find that spark of hope for myself and everyone else is one of the greatest pleasures I’ve ever had. To demonstrate with my own life that things may be more thorns than roses at times, but patience allows the roses to bloom in time.
I’ve also learned it’s OK to struggle sometimes, and to fall back a few paces as long as I don’t plant myself and refuse to get up and try again. There are days when I need to sit down wherever I’ve landed and rest for a bit. There’s no shame or guilt in needing to take a break. Unlike Christopher Robin, there’s no risk of going nowhere if I stop hopping for a few hours, or even a couple of days. I’ve already proven I’ll ultimately get up and start moving again; slowly at first, but with increasing momentum as I rejoice in the small accomplishments.
Riding Life’s Roller Coaster More Consciously
My life has always been a roller coaster ride. Sometimes, I’m diving down into the pits, but I know now those dives will give me the momentum I need to rise up even higher the next time. The pits have gotten shallower too, and are rest stops before I have to pedal a little faster to get up the next mountain. It’s not always easy, but it’s exhilarating, and full of surprises.
When I was younger, I pushed the envelope a lot with my mom. I hated being held back by someone else’s expectations and rules. In hindsight, I had to learn how and when to successfully break free, which took me a few more decades. Now I know there’s nothing more enervating than making and breaking my own rules over and over again.
Rejoicing in Gratitude and My Many Blessings
My gratitudes today are:
- I’m grateful for the time I’ve had to dig deep into my own psyche.
- I’m grateful for all the little things I’m learning bring me great pleasure.
- I’m grateful for Facetime with my friends, and Zoom with my dance community.
- I’m grateful for the opportunity to inspire others and bring hope to a difficult time.
- I’m grateful for abundance; hope, love, friendship, community, inspiration, motivation, expanding, growing, believing, belonging, health, peace, harmony, philanthropy, and prosperity.
Love and Light
About the Author
Sheri Conaway is a Holistic Ghostwriter, and an advocate for cats and mental health. Sheri believes in the Laws of Attraction, but only if you are a participant rather than just an observer. Her mission is to Make Vulnerable Beautiful and help entrepreneurs touch the souls of their readers and clients so they can increase their impact and their income. If you’d like to have her write for you, please visit her Hire Me page for more information. You can also find her on Facebook Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author or in her new group, Putting Your Whole Heart Forward