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July 27, 2014 Going in too many directions…and getting nowhere fast.

One potato, two potato, three potato…ooooh, shiny!

To some, the above sentence will make no sense at all, while to others, who share my affliction, it will be frighteningly clear. It is also a rather accurate description of my behavior for the last week or so. I’m a walking, talking, breathing, writing excuse for distractions, and boy, have they found me!

One of the things I had added back into my schedule was to pull a daily tarot card from my favorite, Spiral Tarot deck and write down first what I see, then what I feel and finally what I think, from gazing at the card. But now, the project is a two-parter, because I also pull a card from the Angel Oracle and incorporate that into the day’s thoughts. Quite often lately, the cards seem to work together. Also quite often, I find myself pulling the same card again within a few days. From time to time, I’ll go back and read the last week or two’s entries, and I have to admit, it’s been pretty insightful.

But wait! There’s more!

It would be fine if I stopped there and went about my normal business, but this week, I started paying more attention to a Tarot page I joined on Facebook, and am finding that my stream of consciousness writing style is lending itself quite well to reading the cards. In fact, in a couple of hidden object draws, I’ve gotten the answer right, just by looking at the picture of the cards drawn and letting the analytical side of my brain take a nap. So of course, when one of the members posted a new spread, I had to be the first to try it out. When I posted the readings, the compliments on the way I just kind of write a story…well, they went to my head. Now, instead of working on the copywriting class or finishing the last 18 pages of my book, I’m playing with the Tarot cards or reading the posts.

Seriously, folks. This nonsense has got to stop!

I know, deep down, that it is just another attempt to put off all of the things I need to do, like finish the book, start a website to attract people to me before hitting them with a request to buy my book…stuff like that. I haven’t even gotten much further on the copywriting class, though I’ll admit that I’m really paying attention to advertising campaigns, and looking for that nugget of information that will make my campaign better than the next guy’s. The awareness is definitely a good thing, but the lack of actual work is not!

At any rate, sometimes, just sharing the dilemma gets me pointed in the right direction. Stay tuned for progress reports!

This week will be interesting as my kids will be here all week, along with my grand puppy. I know that they will do their own thing for at least part of the time, but either way, my attention will definitely be drawn away from the tasks at hand. Only a firm grip on my brain will keep it from wandering who knows where. As it is, it is now 3:00 AM and I’m still up, chatting, writing and talking to the cats. The only productive thing I’m getting out of this time is a blog post, which, I admit, is no small accomplishment, but is it really getting me where I need to go right now? Only time will tell.

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful that I can be brutally honest with myself.
2. I am grateful for a lovely day visiting a friend who is recovering from surgery. A few hours of girlfriend time is always good for the soul.
3. I am grateful for opportunities to talk to other people who share my interests. At this point, I see everything as a potential story idea.
4. I am grateful for all of the opportunities in my life right now, even if trying to stay on task is proving quite challenging.
5. I am grateful for the abundance in my life; love, harmony, friendship, peace, joy and prosperity.

Love and light

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