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Mistaking my Way to Perfection

Finding Hidden Opportunities

I was playing a computer game last night when I made a move which had me kicking myself. Dang it! I should have moved there! I thought to myself. But a couple of moves later, I discovered the move I thought was a mistake had actually set me up to complete the round with a higher score than I’d have gotten if I’d made the “right” move earlier.

It occurred to me that life is the same way. What we believe to be a mistake often turns out to be the best thing we could have done. It’s the wrong turns we make which often lead to the most amazing discoveries. How many hours do we spend beating ourselves up over what we believe is a mistake, only to find out later that it was truly a blessing in disguise?

When my daughters were growing up, I used to tell them to look for the lesson instead of labeling themselves a failure. Things which seem like a disaster at first are nearly always opportunities they’d have missed had everything gone as planned. Oftentimes, those opportunities are only meant to appear when things look the most bleak.

Whether it’s a job I lost or didn’t get, the ending of a friendship or an ending of another sort, I’ve learned that if I wait a bit, I’ll see what that ending left me open for, and find I’m grateful for the ending because had I stayed where I was, I’d have missed something much better.

Letting My Course Be Altered

Even now, more than 2 years into my leap of faith, I’m finding opportunities I wouldn’t have dreamed of 2 years ago. Sure, I haven’t published that book yet or managed to monetize my blog writing very much, but as I’m being pushed out of my comfort zone and out into the world more, I’m exposing myself to opportunities which aren’t even on my radar yet. The hours I spend at home alone are getting shorter and the places I’m going are becoming more interesting and diverse.

I’m doing research into topics I had not, until recently ever written about and digging back into my memories for lessons and techniques I never expected to use. I thought I wanted to sit in my version of a garret and just write and research without much human contact. Instead, I’m filling my calendar with events where I have to walk up to strangers and ask them questions–questions which might once have been off-the-cuff but now require some advance research and planning on my part. Each step I take outside that old comfort zone leads to more steps which take me even further away from where I once dwelled in hermity comfort.

Life is changing and yes, it’s scary, but it’s also exciting. This week, I started Level 5 of John Assaraf’s “Winning the Game of Money”. Am I noticing major changes? Not that I can see. However, I am accepting opportunities to expand my horizons and I have finally gotten back to editing “Sasha’s Journey” so maybe, just maybe, it is making me move, if nothing else. As many of the events I’m attending as Press attract a lot of wealthy people, maybe it’s simply giving me the opportunity to feel more comfortable in their presence for the moment. And maybe that’s what I need right now to help break down any barriers I have to finding wealth myself.

For now, my calendar is filling up and I’m going to have to manage my time better in order to fit in time for writing and editing my novels, writing blog posts and researching and writing the articles for all of the events I have scheduled over the next few months.

Setting Goals and Making Plans

Being busy also means moving more and sitting less which will support one of the goals I wrote down this week; to get healthy and fit. Somehow, all of the pieces I need to achieve the 13 goals I’ve already recorded and the others which will follow in the days and weeks ahead of me are coming just a bit faster than I can manage easily, but at the right pace overall. What I’m trying to accomplish right now doesn’t require a lot of deliberation, it requires action. Giving me less time to think about it or waffle, or even talk myself out of things I find uncomfortable is a good thing, and part of the overall process to reinvent myself right now.

In short, I’m pleased that things are changing a bit too fast, and though I’m running to keep up sometimes, I can always use the extra cardio. I’m excited about the future as I haven’t been in months, and I finally see myself accomplishing a lot of those scary things I set out in my ignorance to do. Those things are only the tip of the iceberg as they came from my limited imagination and experiences. As both expand, those dreams will, of necessity, become loftier and more exciting. It’s a marvelous time to be alive!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for the things which expand my consciousness.
2. I am grateful that the baby steps I’ve been taking to get out of my comfort zone are getting larger and more diverse.
3. I am grateful for the people who are pushing me, pulling me and otherwise helping me leave what comes easily behind in favor of what makes me grow.
4. I am grateful for the brief respite I had while I was sick as it may be the last one I have for the rest of this year.
5. I am grateful for abundance; lessons, knowledge, opportunities, friendship, love, peace, harmony, health, imagination, philanthropy and prosperity.

Blessed Be

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July 12, 2015 Clearing the Debris

My Own Particular Version of Hoarding

I admit it. I’m a sucker for offers of free webinars. I’ve watched more hours than I care to admit; be it self-help, writing, publishing, or underwater basket weaving; I’ve done it all.

Over the last few months, however, I’ve become more and more disenchanted as people become less and less subtle about the sales pitch in these free webinars. The worst of the bunch still has to be Jack Canfield and his publicist spending the first 30 minutes of a 90 minute webinar bragging about how much stuff they have. In fact, I think that was my turning point. From then on, I only watched a few more, and those were either writing related or having to do with meditation.

The Ultimate Junk Mail Subscriber

Yet, it isn’t the hours wasted watching webinars which all start to run together. It isn’t the fact that the useful content is getting smaller and the sales pitch is becoming the bulk of many free webinars. The real issue is once they get your email address, they inundate you with “special offers” and “not to be missed events”. Each iteration becomes even more sales and less content the more they believe they’ve hooked you.

In light of recent events and confusion clearing, today I did two things for myself. First, I unsubscribed from all of those free webinar people with the exception of a couple of writers who truly do give some valuable content and only a minimal sales pitch. This, alone should cut the time I spend deleting emails by about 75%. These insidious time-suckers will no longer even tickle the edges of my consciousness leaving the brain power for more important things like, say, the latest re-write of Sasha’s Journey.

Taking the Cleaning to a Whole New Level

Once the inbox deluge was stemmed, it was easier to see what is truly important and what is not, and also makes the disruptive ping of incoming mail occur a lot less often! With all the extra time on my hands, I gazed around my physical environment and noticed windows which hadn’t been cleaned in years and were so covered with grime it made the sky look muddy even though it was a bright, clear blue. Once again, I got a start on the project, but have a ways to go to finish. My office window is clean, inside and out, but the rest of the windows on the front of the house are only clean on the outside, and I need to remove the screens to finish even that much. But it is a start and one I’ll more likely complete as I gaze out the one completely clean window every day and remind myself how nice it looks.

If I’ve learned nothing else over the last couple of years it’s that a periodic cleaning and decluttering is essential to forward progress. We have to be willing to go through what we have and let go of what no longer serves us. (though I exclude books from this process. They will always serve me!) Looking back and looking around me, I have made some major changes and gotten rid of a lot of things I no longer needed. But the process will always need to be revisited. As we clear the way for new and better things to enter our lives, some of those things will only be temporary, and they, too will ultimately need to be cleared to make room for newer things. Though this was one of my toughest lessons, I find that the more I clear things from my life, the easier it gets. The more often I clear things from my life, the sooner I recognize it is time to do it again. Funny how that works!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for a clean, clear view of the world outside my office.
2. I am grateful for a huge reduction in the junk emails I receive.
3. I am grateful for a fun evening out with the girls and Shakespeare’s “Measure for Measure”.
4. I am grateful for continued improvement in my shoulder and arm, thanks to daily exercises and Salonpas Deep Relieving Gel (which Scrappy Doo insists he must lick off my body!).
5. I am grateful for abundance: friendship, love, harmony, companionship, intelligent conversations, joy, peace, clarity, health, prosperity and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

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