Traveling Solo By Choice
Solo Travelers of Different Ilks
I was talking to a friend about her latest solo adventure; creating a tentative itinerary, but allowing the wind, fates, and her own curiosity to alter her path at random. Her animation as she recounted her adventures and the course alterations which led to new and interesting discoveries was a beacon in the darkness of my own solo travels. While I don’t have her courage, or frankly, her desire to take off on a solo road trip like that, we do have one thing in common; our lack of desire to share accommodations.
In the last year or so, funds have not only allowed me a few mini vacations, they’ve begun to allow those vacations to happen without having to share my personal space. I’ve spent several glorious days being able to enter a hotel room or ship’s cabin and shut the door on the world, if only for a little while. The sheer pleasure of not having to share a bathroom, or have to be at least marginally sociable is something, short of my own home, I’ve been unable to experience, usually because the cost was prohibitive given my means up to now.
A Partner, Not a Roommate
Once my mind started chewing on the thought, though, I realized it isn’t that I’m anti-social and no longer want to be somewhat attached at the hip with someone when I travel. It’s that I no longer want to travel with a roommate. If the time comes I find someone with whom I’d like to be partners, I’d happily give up those solo rooms and cabins, and maybe even go on an uncharted adventure or two.
Like most people, I’d like one of those deep, soul connections but my own history, and the examples I was set early on have left me unprepared and woefully under-equipped to identify characteristics on which I could build a relationship like that, much less the tools with which to do it. While I’ve worked on fixing a lot of my broken places, that part of my life is like a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle with at least 300 pieces missing…and most of them edge pieces.
A Time to Heal, and a Time to Test My Wings
You might think this lack of capabilities would leave me discouraged, and hopeless, and at one time, it did. I realize now it was partially old self-defense mechanisms (if I didn’t put myself out there, I wouldn’t get hurt), and partially because I was still healing, and wasn’t ready for something (or someone) which would pull me away from the task at hand.
Slowly, but surely, my heart has been unwinding the protective wrappings I put there to keep it safe from harm. Many of the wounds have healed leaving scars of a much tougher texture. Knowing it could still get broken is no longer a reason to keep it tucked away from all the possible pleasures I’ve avoided most of my life. I finally allowed it to heal, grow stronger, and to know that while it can heal again with less trauma now, it is strong enough to withstand whatever might happen. It’s strong enough to make better choices, and to be able to revel in the wonders of true connection and love.
I will always need my alone time, especially when I travel to places where I’ll be amongst throngs of people during the trip, but I’m learning by watching friends with healthy relationships that the right traveling companion will bring additional shelter from the emotion-fraught storms rather than adding to the chaos. Until now, I didn’t believe another person could clear space for me to breathe, even though I’ve held space for others a time or two. It’s about time I understood I can get a little of what I give, but it’s up to me to open a door in the wall I’ve guarded so fiercely for so long.
Grateful for the Changing Landscape of My Life
My gratitudes today are:
- I’m grateful for friends who share their experiences, and inadvertently give me insight into myself.
- I’m grateful for the lessons which once hardened my heart, but are now beginning to soften it again.
- I’m grateful for the ability to travel solo until I find someone with whom I’m comfortable sharing space.
- I’m grateful for the peace and quiet of a Sunday morning. It doesn’t happen often when neighbors drive big, noisy trucks, and pull out the even noisier motorcycles on weekends.
- I’m grateful for learning to understand Sable’s moods, and respect her desire to remain in the crate a little longer at times.
About the Author
Sheri Conaway is a Holistic Ghostwriter, and an advocate for cats and mental health. Sheri believes in the Laws of Attraction, but only if you are a participant rather than just an observer. Her mission is to Make Vulnerable Beautiful and help entrepreneurs touch the souls of their readers and clients so they can increase their impact and their income.
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