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July 5, 2015 Stop the Pity Party. I Want to Get Off!

Doing Nothing Ain’t All it’s Cracked Up to Be

After several days of lounging on the La-Z-Boy (which also doubles as my bed these days) I’ve come to the conclusion that a life of leisure is just not for me. Aside from cooking a couple of meals, feeding the cats (as if I could avoid that!), cleaning up after myself and emptying the sand boxes, very little has gotten done around here since my shoulder started making its unhappiness known and frankly, I’m getting bored of my own company. Taking the muscle relaxers as often as prescribed means that if I move around at all, I experience discomfort. Not excruciating pain, mind you, just constant, unrelenting discomfort which, frankly, gets old fast.

It hasn’t been all bad, as nothing ever is. The muscle relaxers have killed my appetite so, according to my scale, whose accuracy isn’t entirely trustworthy, I’ve dropped 8 pounds in the last couple of weeks. I’ve also learned to use the mouse with my left hand, a skill which is useful on many levels. But I’m sleeping far more than I’d like and thinking too much while doing too little. But in all honesty, just the realization is enough to get me to give myself the kick in the butt I need to stop letting a little bit of pain and discomfort defeat me and get on with my life. Gina Horkey has issued a pitching challenge and, up to now, I’ve offered every excuse in the book to avoid participating. That has to stop. I’ve done no writing in the last week or so. That, too, has to stop.

Leaps of Faith Come in Many Forms

The Universe has a way of challenging me in sometimes subtle ways, just to see if I’m paying attention. This time, it’s saying Do you really believe in the leap of faith you took nearly two years ago, or were you just looking for a reason to sit on your ass and do nothing? Time to walk the walk, Girlie. Shit or get off the pot and find a real job again, assuming someone would actually hire an alter kakker like you! OK, I didn’t say the Universe was always kind about it’s remonstrations. I truly have reached a crossroads from which I need to either choose to work my craft with intent or go back on someone else’s payroll (my stomach curdles just thinking about that!).

So today, I get my monthly bills paid, then do a google search to find some companies to pitch. I also try to spend some time using Holly Lisle’s How to Think Sideways course to get the re-write of Sasha’s Journey moving forward. And tomorrow, come hell or high water, I get this lazy tuchus of mine to the gym. After a nearly two week hiatus, it’s time to get my life back on track and start living that Leap of Faith I took too long ago to show no actual returns for the effort (ok aside from the $48 I earned from BlogMutt!).

You might wonder why I go to the effort of putting this all in my blog today. I’ve found that by writing my intentions down and sharing them, I psych myself up to do more and do better. There’s also the possibility that I’ll inspire someone else and if I do, that’s the cherry on top of my hot fudge sundae.

Happy Sunday, everyone. My gratitudes today are:
1. I am grateful that the pain in my shoulder has subsided into more of an annoyance, albeit constant.
2. I am grateful for my nurse kitties who have kept a constant vigil.
3. I am grateful that I’ve managed to make all of my dance nights, despite the recalcitrant shoulder.
4. I am grateful for the hope and inspiration I receive from my friends and acquaintances.
5. I am grateful for abundance: hope, inspiration, intention, motivation, love, joy, friendship, harmony, peace, prosperity and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

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April 15, 2015 Living the Vida Loca, aka Living the Writer’s Life

Investing My Blog With All of My Personalities

By now you may have noticed that my blog is even more schizophrenic than usual (which is saying a real mouthful!). It seems I have returned to my corporate accounting days when it was common to juggle multiple projects, each with its own critical deadline. As most of you who’ve ever done office work know, everyone believes their deadline is critical, and invariably, everyone’s projects and deadlines overlap.

You would think that when we are in control of our own schedule, that we would get away from this phenomenon. But I’m here to tell you that is not the case, mostly because we commit to various people or projects which come burdened with a deadline of their own. I even passed on a couple of things as I believed it would overburden me in the month of April. Little did I know…

Do I Blog? Do I Network? Do I Novel? Do I Study My Craft?

All of a sudden, I seem to have truly committed to my life as a writer, and therein lies the problem. Suddenly, I need to spend more time working on the writing class I signed up for in early March. But I also need to work on the Freelance Blogging course I signed up for too. (and which now is encouraging me to find a mentor which will require still more of a time commitment!) Then, of course, there is Camp NaNoWriMo to which I committed completing the novel I started in November. And what about the crit notes I need to get back to? Suddenly, I’m back to that crazy woman who worked long hours so that no project went past its due date.

OK, so the reality is that I’m happier when I have more on my plate. It’s as simple as that. Since I don’t have much in the way of actual paying work commitments right now, I have to create them in one way or another. But in order to create those paying work commitments, I have to hone my craft, right? And that means signing up for classes which will help me do so.

The beauty of it is, when I get stuck or frustrated with the blogging courses, I switch over to the writing courses, and when I don’t want to use my left brain at all, I work on my novel. In the end, everyone is happy. I think.

I did actually submit a post to BlogMutt today. I wasn’t seeing a whole lot of success with Elance, or even much I wanted to bid on, and as there seems to be at least 15 or 20 people bidding on each small dollar job, I wasn’t feeling very warm and fuzzy about putting forth the effort.

Sure, if my post is accepted, I stand to earn a whopping $8 for the post I did on BlogMutt, but even with the research I did for the post, I didn’t put more than a half hour into it, and the post is less than 500 words. (While you’re laughing your tush off at the idea of me writing something that short, give me credit for actually being able to confine myself to something so brief. That was my one impossible thing for the day.)

If nothing else, I’ve already earned the first of many writer’s badges of honor by receiving rejections on Elance. Whether my post is accepted or rejected on BlogMutt, it is simply one more step along the path I’ve chosen (or been chosen) to tread.

The way I see it, some of my writing is for fun and some of it is for profit (or I hope there will be some profit) and all of it is a learning experience. Perhaps some day I’ll have the opportunity to give back by teaching or mentoring someone else. But for now, I’m the student and the one who needs a mentor, if I could just figure out exactly what to ask for!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful to have reached lesson 28 in the 30 Day Freelance Blogging course.
2. I am grateful to have submitted my first post to a potential buyer.
3. I am grateful for the hours I’ve spent watching videos and reading about writing in the Holly Lisle course.
4. I am grateful for a continuing flow of opportunities opening themselves up to me.
5. I am grateful for abundance: opportunities, lessons, friendship, family, love, joy, harmony, peace, health, prosperity and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

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