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January 3, 2014 Getting sidetracked

Best of intentions are seldom enough to get the story writ.

I left the dance hall tonight I had it all planned out. I was going to go home, make a cup of one of the lovely teas I unearthed while organizing today, sit down at the computer and write. It’s now 1:03AM and I have yet to write a thing! Even now, I’m dividing my time between writing this post and talking to a new friend. We met over a Tarot spread tonight, and spent a couple of hours helping each other interpret our cards. I won’t say it was wasted time because I learned a lot in the process, but yet, it didn’t get any writing done, here or on my latest novel.

I know I need to exercise more discipline, and my intentions really are good! I even spent some time on the copywriting course tonight before I went dancing. I also know that I need to minimize distractions, and have been good in the past about turning off everything except what I need to write.

This is the year when I will turn off email and social media for blocks of time every day.

A key part of sticking with my resolution to be kinder to myself is to allow myself to be successful. In order to do that, I have to make time to write and study, not just when I feel like it, but every single day. It’s a lot like my commitment to my gym routine. There are no excuses! Or should I say, there’s no such thing as a good excuse. Which is why, at just after 1 in the morning, I’m still up and making sure I do some kind of writing before I sleep. If you can’t keep a promise to yourself, you’re not going to be much good at keeping them with others.

***Topic Change Alert*** Speaking of having to be good to yourself before being good to others, I am reminded of how important it is to love, nay, to be madly in love with yourself. It took me a long time, but I’ve finally learned that until you can honestly say that you’re madly in love with yourself, you’re not likely to attract someone who will love and appreciate you as you deserve. Now, I’ve become pretty darned deserving over these last few years, yet I seem to be lacking an ingredient which will complete the circle.

Which leads me back to the new friend I made tonight. We were discussing the cards we’d each pulled for a Relationship Spread a gentleman posted tonight. My quandary was having gotten a card which meant “wish fulfillment” in a position which was supposed to answer the question: What am I doing that is an obstacle to finding an appropriate love partner? What I now realize is that my mindset is that I have everything I need emotionally, which keeps me from presenting an openness which might allow someone to breach my walls. In other words, loving yourself isn’t enough if you don’t acknowledge the fact that you also want to share that loving, caring person with somebody besides your pets and children.

This is just another example of how I allow myself to get sidetracked, however. So I will wind this up with tonight’s gratitudes so I’ll get up at a reasonable hour tomorrow to start following my plan and writing/studying!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for new perspectives.
2. I am grateful that I can crank out a few words, even when distracted.
3. I am grateful that I recognize when I need to make some changes.
4. I am grateful for another night of dancing with some lovely company.
5. I am grateful for abundance: friendship, inspiration, commitment, love, joy, happiness, harmony, peace, health and prosperity.

Blessed be.


October 28, 2014 All good intentions got flushed today. #shericonaway #blogboost

The best of intentions aren’t worth a tinker’s damn if you don’t go to bed until 3:00 AM!

I really did have the best of intentions today: Get up early, go to the gym, pick up my Harvest box, and do some more reading on plot development. But around 11:30 last night, an email came in notifying me that the ebook I’d pre-ordered which completed Nora Roberts’ O’Dwyer series was available. What was I to do but start reading it immediately?

Needless to say, I finally put it down at 3 AM and woke later than I’d planned. So the gym got skipped and after picking up my Harvest box and chatting with the young man who’d put me in touch with his mother, who manages the website, I came home, fixed one of the artichokes which was in the box, heated up some leftover chicken, and returned to my book.

Sure, I finished it by about 4PM, but by then, I wasn’t inclined to do anything productive with the rest of my day, so I did my daily meditation, hours late, instead.

It’s too darned easy to get engrossed in something and lose track of the time!

After watching some of the shows I DVR on Tuesday nights and having a couple of phone conversations with my daughter on her way to and from Wine and Paint (or something like that), I did my evening chores and promptly became engrossed in a computer game. So now it’s 3AM again!

The difference is, two-fold. First, I didn’t have the foresight to write my blog post before I lost sight of time, space and responsibilities, and second, I fully intend to go to the gym tomorrow, regardless of what time I wake up. To ensure that I don’t oversleep, I will allow Mr. Scrappy Doo of the lousy manners to remain free to roam the house. He can be counted on to start being obnoxious sufficiently early to render all efforts to talk myself out of going to the gym, pointless. In this regard, Dylan is absolutely no help. Not only does he have no interest in the morning wet food, but he is quite content to snuggle in bed for as long as I’ll stay put.

So the plan is made, the blog post is written, the book is finished and no longer a distraction. Life should return to normal…for at least a day.

What distracts you to the point that you lose all track of time and turn your entire schedule upside down for a day or two? Do you give yourself permission to just let it all go for a bit, or do you feel guilty about it, or worse, beat yourself up?

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for days that go awry, and the fact that I can and do catch back up.
2. I am grateful for my loosey goosey schedule.
3. I am grateful for more goodies and new things to try in my Harvest Box. (tomorrow’s treat will be mashed cauliflower and kolrabi.)
4. I am grateful for my furry bed warmers who sometimes double as alarm clocks.
5. I am grateful for abundance: time, love, joy, friendship, imagination, motivation, harmony, peace, health and prosperity.


September 23, 2014 Energy shift

Today was like a bell curve.

I know that probably sounds geeky and weird, but it’s the only thing I could think of to describe today’s energy. I started out slow, easy and mellow, taking longer than I should have to actually get going. Distractions were like lightening bugs, beckoning me to follow. Although I had plans which would take me out of the house, I kept finding things I simply had to do before I left!

I did finally get out of the house around 2 and spent the next couple of hours doing what I’d planned. As it happens, it worked out better than I’d expected as I didn’t hit the after school rush I’d thought I would. Traffic in the stores was light, though I did hit a slow patch on the freeway which turned out to be a trash truck inching along while everyone did their best to get around it. People were in good moods, cheerful and friendly. I found what I needed easily, and even picked up a couple of things for my son-in-law’s next care package.

What I noticed most about today, though, so completely followed what I’ve been reading about from other people that, by the end of the day, I just had to sit back and say: “Hmmmmmm The only way to describe it is vibrant and light and incredibly uplifting. It makes me anxious to see what the next few days–no, weeks, even months will bring! It’s like taking all of the holidays and rolling them up into one, big bundle and celebrating everything you can think of for a week or more, just because you can.

I did, however, liken the day to a bell curve. At the other end was a plethora of shows I DVR’d tonight and, of course, had to sit down and watch while zipping past the commercials. Granted, I spent a lot of time fidgeting and playing with my iPad while watching, but it was still a lower energy path to the last part of the day.

I find that I’m planning out the next few days with either errands or tasks I want to accomplish. Not all of it is on my To Do list, per se, but all are things I need to accomplish at some point. I even scheduled my errands into “perishable day” and “non-perishable day”. For those in cooler climes, this probably seems silly, but here, where we call a day in the 80’s “a nice respite from the heat”, leaving anything perishable in the car for very long means you just flushed the cost of those items down the drain!

At the end of the day, I see this energy shift that some attribute to the Autumn Equinox a positive time of completing projects, reconnecting and good, strong forward momentum. Here in the Northern Hemisphere, it’s the time of harvest rather than forward momentum. A time where what we’ve worked on all year is harvested and stored away to carry us through the winter (which seems kind of weird since our growing season is maybe March to November). Yet, this year hasn’t followed normal patterns anyway, so why should we begin going by the book at this late stage? Instead, let’s throw away that book and follow those energies wherever they might take us! Who’s in?

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for a shift in energies.
2. I am grateful to be making my own way, following my own star.
3. I am grateful for this lighter, more energetic feeling.
4. I am grateful for expansion. The world has become such a robust organism and we, her inhabitants, are beneficiaries of the energies of growth.
5. I am grateful for abundance: energy, love, connections, friendship, health. joy and prosperity.


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