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Dream a Little Dream With Me

Asleep or Awake, the Universe Guides Me With Clear Intentions

I’ve been having a lot of dreams lately (and yes, I remember a lot when I wake up) involving people from my past. Sometimes they appear individually and others, like last night, in veritable hordes. Individually, I usually recognize the person, if not by face, at least by reference to something in the past to which they were connected. But when they’re in hordes, I often think The face is familiar. but I can’t put a name or a place to it.

Last night in particular, I kept wandering into groups of people, ostensibly from my past, but behaving in bizarre manners. In the first one I remember, I was directed to a conference room where I was supposed to meet with someone about doing some kind of contract work. Next thing I knew, the room filled up with people who seemed oblivious to my presence until I started babbling about irrelevant things. After receiving several pointed glares, I realized it wasn’t my inane commentary to which they objected, but to my bare feet propped on the table which I’d somehow managed to overlook when people started filling the room.

Without getting lost in a lengthy analysis or discussion about my vivid dreams, I just want to say that I’ve come to the realization I’m being guided to revisit the past for a reason: I need to clear and release all of my old baggage to leave my slate clear for all of the positive affirmations and life changes I’ll be making during the *infinitepossibilitiesproject.

Our Possibilities are Only Limited by Our Own Thoughts and Beliefs

Speaking of which, I haven’t posted the last couple of days’ #infinitepossibilitiesproject tasks because they were more experiential than documentable. But for Day 8, that all changed, and here is my personal version of the theme.

Day 8 Changing My Story

My life really blasted off in 2016 when I started looking forward instead of back, while enjoying one day at a time in the present. That’s when I just started writing whatever came into my head and publishing it on my blog with a link to my website. I covered everything from How-to’s to dream analysis to healthy eating to pets. My unfiltered approach began attracting attention as friends and followers started passing my posts around.

Soon, posts turned into short stories which required daily or weekly updates and I used the art of the cliffhanger to my advantage. If I happened to miss a day, I’d receive a slew of comments wanting to know what would happen to my hero or heroine next. Forget Watt Pad or any of the formal story posting sites. I created a following of my own and began inviting other writers to share their serially written stories on my site as well until volume reached such a level I had to create a website just for the stories! But the real icing on the cake came when my Hire Me pages completely exploded with requests for me to write for other people. The law of supply and demand forced me to not only raise my rates to an almost embarrassing level, but to hire other writers to work for me! I had my pick since many were already posting stories on my site, and I knew what they could do.

With the creative juices flowing so steadily, I finished all three of my novels in progress and hired editors and cover artists. On the advice of my Marketing Guru, I released them several months apart, offering giveaways of some of my short stories to attract attention. It wasn’t long before I had to start charging for the short story collections too, as demand got too high to keep giving them away. What came next was a whirlwind of book signings across the country, television interviews and finally, the cherry on top of my hot fudge sundae, an invitation to do a TED talk!

Sitting on the deck of the dream house I had built on an extraordinary piece of property overlooking a stunning piece of Southern California beach, I watch the sun sinking into the sea. Perhaps one of my writer friends has joined me for a cup of tea on a chilly autumn evening to share the day’s progress or just enjoy the silence broken only by the crashing of the waves. My cats have each found their favorite spot on lap, chair or floor to enjoy the peaceful camaraderie and a bit of attention after being somewhat ignored while I wrote all day.

Eventually, with the darkening sky, I stand up, stretch and head for my in-home gym to push muscles which my fairly sedentary life of writing would otherwise render less useful. Even several nights a week of dancing need to be augmented by pushing some heavy pieces of metal around in various ways to keep muscles and joints strong and limber. I feel my body moving freely through the motions and a rush of gratitude flows through me. Not only for the ability to move and lift at my advanced age {grin} but for how my passion for writing has given me the life I’ve always dreamed of and friends to share it with who truly appreciate the road I traveled to get here. I am so blessed.

I got a bit behind on Day 8, but made it up by getting a jump on Day 9:

Day 9 Choosing beliefs that serve me in every area of my life I wish to transform.
1. I am dedicated to my craft and to writing every day.
2. I attract people who inspire, promote and advance my career goals.
3. I crave foods which are healthy and inspire my creativity in the kitchen.
4. I have all of the resources I need to be successful, and to help others be the same.
5. There is more than enough work for all of us in every area we wish to influence and affect.
6. The Universe guides me, giving me stepping stones as I complete each lesson, leading me to the next lesson and accomplishment.
7. The world contains far more kindness and compassion than anything else. We are all inspired to help and support each other.
8. Marketing my books and stories is easier than I imagined, easier than it’s been to get the words down on the page and worked out to my satisfaction.
9. I am fearless. I know what I want and I know how to get there. I am my own best advocate.
10. One of my purposes is to help, guide and inspire others.

You Deserve Abundance

If you’re finding yourself in self-defeating thought, behavior or belief patterns, I recommend you check out Tut’s Infinite Possibilities Project. I can attest to the fact that I’m feeling stronger, more inspired and more powerful with each new day. In fact, a few more days of all of this incredible positive energy and I might become rather a PITA about it. I will try to keep my soapbox firmly tucked away as I know that like everything else, it’s not for everyone. But if you’re inspired at all by the accounts of my experience, you might want to take a few minutes and just listen to a couple of the videos.

Before this becomes a novella, let me leave you with tonight’s gratitudes.
1. I am grateful for all of the people who spread love and positivity.
2. I am grateful for the opportunity to encourage and inspire others.
3. I am grateful for the many people, things and circumstances which are flowing into my life to inspire, to uplift and to help me find my true purpose.
4. I am grateful for things that make me twitchy because those are the things that make me take action and move closer to the life I imagine while adding more details I hadn’t even thought of.
5. I am grateful for abundance: love, inspiration, friendship, motivation, positivity, kindness, compassion, health, beauty, peace, harmony, philanthropy and prosperity.

Blessed Be

I invite you to visit my Facebook pages, Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author and HLWT Accounting. Please also drop by my website, and check out my Hire Me Page. I’ve created these pages as a means of positive affirmation and would be very grateful if you’d “like” them or leave a comment! Thank you!

Rainy Day Thoughts

Looking out my window at the rain-drenched street, the late-afternoon sun casts a glow making the neighborhood appear almost magical. Though the drenching we’ve received in the last two days will make but a small dent in our drought-ravaged state, the parched earth, nonetheless, offers it’s own words of gratitude to the dark, looming clouds.

It was easy today to read or study or meditate; a cat or two always nearby. The rain beat a staccato rhythm on my roof, punctuated periodically by thunderclaps, resounding like tympani, emphasizing the downbeat. Yet the almost non-stop downpour elevates my mood. Not because we so desperately need it but because I’ve always found the sound of rain soothing. It’s a sound we humans cannot duplicate via faucet or fountain; its arrhythmic rhythm following its own beat; playing its surreal tune.

Can you hear the music in the raindrops? Can you feel the beat as they bounce off the sidewalk or tap on your window? Do you heed their call when they tap out “Come out and play!”? Or are you more focused on getting the kids to school relatively dry or making what you know will be a challenging commute? Are you too busy, too stressed to stop and just listen to the rhythm of the rain?

One of the many things I gained when I slowed my life down was the luxury of listening to the rain and even heeding its call. Even a downpour while I’m loading groceries into my car just makes me laugh. I turn my face upwards, lapping up a drop or two, then stomp purposefully in the puddles just because I can.

I believe growing old, at least mentally, is a choice. It happens when we choose to let go of our childlike enjoyment of the little things because we feel the need to be responsible. Yet in reality, we can be selectively responsible and still retain that childlike enjoyment.

Maybe that’s why cat and dog videos are so popular these days. You can, for the few moments the video plays, revel in that devil-may-care attitude. But why not take it a step further? Embrace it. Be it. Dance in the rain or sing a happy song. Cut loose and realize what others might think of your behavior is really not your concern. They’re going to react as they do regardless of your behavior. So you might as well make yourself happy, right?

Back when I did have to commute, I taught myself to embrace the delays. They gave me a few more minutes of alone time when I could sip my coffee and smile at my fellow commuters. For those few extra minutes, I was disconnected from phones and computers and people who needed something from me. Those were moments of pure bliss. But those were also days when I worked in a job that was sucking my soul so periods of disconnectedness were golden.

Though I’m rarely stuck in traffic these days, on the rare occasions when I do find myself crawling along the Southern California freeways, I use the time to imagine or create or just sing along with the radio or CD. I’m still learning to release the things I can’t control, but for the most part, traffic jams are no longer a cause for stress. But then again, I can choose to stay home when the roads are a mess.

Someone asked me recently if I could continue to survive financially if it took me a little longer to get a few writing or VA gigs. I was pleasantly surprised to admit that the simplifications I’ve made in my life in the last couple of years along with some fortuitous reductions in outflow mean I’d actually be OK for quite some time.

As I felt some of the pressure flow out of my system, I felt confidence flow in. Thanks to an ever-increasing network of positive, supportive people, I’m gaining much-needed skills for promoting not only the work I’m doing now, but the books I will be publishing over the next couple of years. These things took time to build. Relationships have been a process. This isn’t something I could have accomplished in less time than it’s taken. There’s a lot to be said for being a work in progress.

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for the people I’ve met, the challenges I’ve taken, and the growth I’ve enjoyed.
2. I am grateful that I’ve simplified and downsized my life. It’s a much better fit now; like a comfy pair of well-washed jeans or loose-fitting sweats.
3. I am grateful for each and every opportunity I’m being given to learn, grow and give back.
4. I am grateful for my own personal forums on which to share my thoughts, lessons and ideas, and for the people who read them and offer feedback.
5. I am grateful for abundance; friends, fellow travelers, lessons, challenges, successes and failures, laughter and tears, dancing, love, joy, health, peace, harmony, philanthropy and prosperity (and that piece of property overlooking the beach where I’ll live, love, thrive and offer other artists a place to retreat and follow their own passion.)

Blessed Be

I invite you to visit my Facebook pages, Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author and HLWT Accounting. Please also drop by my website, and check out my Hire Me Page. I’ve created these pages as a means of positive affirmation and would be very grateful if you’d “like” them or leave a comment! Thank you!

Stepping into my Abundance

Beginning the Year with a Cliche

Ordinarily, I try to avoid the obvious topics in my blog, but I’m making an exception tonight. On this, the first day of a new year, I’m feeling empowered; I’m feeling hopeful, and above all, I’m feeling abundance. 2015 was an interesting year. For many it carried with it catastrophes both big and small. Lives and property lost under tragic circumstances. Saying good-bye to loved ones who’d fought the good fight but were exhausted and ready to move on. Or simply things which didn’t work out as planned.

For me, it was a year of changes. It was a year for joining critique groups and for altering my direction a bit. It was a year of stepping outside my comfort zone, not with baby steps, but with a couple of really giant steps. Writable

It was also a year when traditions were changed to accommodate scheduling issues, and the results were amazing. Heather and I got to cook for 18 people on Thanksgiving. The house might have been a bit crowded, but the company was wonderful, and we’ll do it again as soon as we get the chance. Christmas wasn’t at my house for the first time in years, and that, too, was wonderful. We shared Christmas lunch with Mathom and his shipmates after delivering cookies and cookie mix jars Heather had made for the people who had to work on Christmas. We had sushi twice and visited the baby animals at the Safari Park.

In short, it was a year of breaking with tradition on many levels. And it all worked out beautifully. Thanks to my friend Jesse, I’m getting out more and talking to people more which is about as far outside my comfort zone as it gets. I’m typically shy with strangers, but I spent a lot of time talking to people while she photographed events, and frankly, I loved it. And I discovered a couple more niches to write for.

Out With the Old, In With the New

But what does this have to do with the new year, you ask. Well, it was how 2015 shook out which led me to this place where I’m seeing the changes put in place last year manifesting some incredible things this year. Wheels set in motion in 2015 are on track to make some of my goals realities. Some will manifest this year while others are a bit further out. Baby steps are combining into larger steps now.

But the best part of all is the wonderful people with whom I’ve connected, and who I’ll continue to follow, encourage and be encouraged by. The ball has been set in motion and it’s gaining momentum.

Giving Thanks and Naming Names

The path I’m on now could not have been possible had it not been for the connections I’ve made and the people who made those connections possible.What you believe-Buddha As they are all equally important and valuable, this list is in no particular order other than what my brain spits out.

  • The Inklings, started in January by Seth and Gina Wagerman
  • Gina Horkey of #HorkeyHandbook Fame who created an amazing network of people via her 30DOL groups. It even led to my helping form a small mastermind group who were among the top pitchers for December!
  • Jesse Watrous who gave me my first by-lined writing gig on her website #DineSavorRepeat
  • #NaNoWriMo where I found incentive and encouragement to begin my third novel
  • Michelle Bellamy and Barb Lanier who encouraged me to follow the dream which had been smoldering inside me for many years
  • Heather and Mathom who have loved and encouraged me, nagged and abused me. But always, they show me by words and actions that being the best me is what’s important.
  • Candy Illing, butt-kicker extraordinaire who knows first-hand how long my dreams have been smoldering. She, herself is an outstanding example of a woman who follows her dreams.
  • All of my dance friends who have been so supportive and have never once questioned my sanity in jumping off the deep end into the unknown.
  • All of the people who’ve been reading my scribbles and letting me know that they are! Knowing they don’t just stop by once or twice, but read my words regularly is the ultimate encouragement.
  • Jesse Wolfe who has gone above and beyond to make sure my cats are well cared for on both planned and unplanned trips away from home.

Some of these people have been there since I began this journey more than 2 years ago while others joined the party in 2015. I am both inspired and humbled by their support, and blown away by how much this list has grown in a single year. Is it any wonder that I enter 2016 with such a feeling of abundance? My life is full to overflowing and it’s up to me to grow the vessel. How can I fail to do so?

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for the growth of my personal network.
2. I am grateful for the journals Heather gave me for Christmas which are the perfect size to write my first thoughts down after meditating.
3. I am grateful for beginnings and for endings. Both are necessary in order to grow and move forward.
4. I am grateful for my restocking efforts of the last couple of weeks. My freezer is again full of hot meals to keep me for awhile.
5. I am grateful for abundance: friendship, encouragement, camaraderie, joy, love, hugs, dancing, kitty cuddles, opportunities, expanding horizons, peace, harmony, health, philanthropy and prosperity.

Blessed Be

I invite you to visit my Facebook pages, Sheri Levenstein-Conaway Author and HLWT Accounting. Please also drop by my website, and check out my Hire Me Page. I’ve created these pages as a means of positive affirmation and would be very grateful if you’d “like” them or leave a comment! Thank you!

Be Careful What You Browse For

The Obvious Choice isn’t Necessarily the Right Choice

My browser history now contains a porn site. Where has my writing taken me that I needed a porn site, you might ask. I can reply with complete honesty that I am not planning a trip to the dark side of 50 Shades of Meh fan fiction any time soon.

This particular side trip started out perfectly innocently. My elderly cat, Patches has developed a rather eerie yowl of late, but more often than not, she’ll emit this worrisome vocalization when I’m in the middle of something. By the time I go back to my bedroom to investigate, she’s crawled back under my bed and refuses to emerge. On the few occasions I have been able to reach her in time, I’ve checked her over thoroughly and found no areas where she’s experiencing pain.

I’d heard about a site for animals similar to Web MD so I typed in “” And that’s where the trouble began. I was about to use their search box to look for an explanation for yowling when my eye caught a particularly racy photo and my brain said methinks we have stumbled upon a purveyor of erotica and other adult entertainment. Since it was unlikely they would have information on cat yowling unless there is a market for it in the furry scene, I used the search box to locate the proper site and put it from my mind.

But now, I have a porn site in my browser history. Of course, I can erase the history, but it’s usually an all-or-nothing kind of transaction.

Refocusing My Attraction

On a completely different topic (by now, you should expect no less from me) I realized today that as I work on refocusing my business plan, I continue to attract people (in droves, even) whose mantra is: “I don’t have enough money for that.” It finally dawned on me today that I’m sending out that vibe myself. It was a very obvious reminder that I need to make a mantra of a quote that’s hanging on my vision board and repeat it to myself several times a day.

I Have Everything I Need and Nothing That I Don’t

I could even expand on it by adding: “I have everything I need to accomplish every single one of my goals, be it publishing my novels, purchasing quality cover art, hiring a decent editor, increasing my marketing efforts, finishing my remodel…the possibilities are endless. I simply need to open my virtual toolbox and make each thing happen in its time.

Of course, whenever my mind drifts to the remodel, I see myself moving with all of the cats to another location. And since I’m moving, I’ve found someplace which is perfect for fulfilling all of the dreams I have right now, plus many I have yet to dream. Completing the remodel will leave me with a piece of rental property as I won’t need to sell my current home to buy the property of my dreams. Do you see what I just did?

I started with a single statement about having everything I need. That one felt so good I moved on to being able to accomplish all of my goals and, in fact, give some business to other people because I have enough to do that. From there, I moved on to completing the remodel which led to the big wazoo, my piece of property overlooking the ocean which is big enough to build an artist’s retreat and rescue animals. Right now I’m feeling like I am unstoppable and all because I recognized a lesson and did what was necessary to put a lesson into practice.

Being the “Like” I Want to Attract

When all is said and done, if we want to attract something or someone, we need to focus on embodying the qualities of what we want to attract. When I start floundering or take my eyes off the prize, the Universe is there to remind me, subtly at first, then more forcefully if I prove denser than usual. It’s a partnership I cherish and have cause to appreciate more and more with each passing day.

What Can You Do Today to Better Attract What You Desire?

Do you find yourself attracting the same things all the time? Are they the opposite of what you want to attract? Feel free to use my mantra (courtesy of Zac Brown) to reprogram your internal magnet. It only takes a minute to move back onto the path of abundance.

My gratitudes today are:
1. I am grateful for lessons from the Universe.
2. I am grateful I learned the value of gratitude.
3. I am grateful for all of the positive things in my life.
4. I am grateful for friends who help me recognize when I’m going down a slippery slope.
5. I am grateful for abundance; friendship, lessons, opportunities, insight, diligence, perseverance, new ideas, old ideas, encouragement, peace, harmony, love, health, philanthropy and prosperity.

Blessed Be

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July 7, 2015 One Woman’s Challenge is Another’s Opportunity

When is a Leap of Faith Not a Leap of Faith

Sometimes we choose our Leaps of Faith and other times, they are thrust upon us. Such is the case with my determination to remain self-sufficient, regardless of how many years this body has spent on earth. Until a little over a year ago, that wasn’t really a problem as my daughter and son-in-law lived right up the street and could be called upon if I needed another set of hands, a second opinion or a stronger back than mine. That all changed when the Navy sent them three hours away a little over a year ago. (It could have been much worse as at first, we thought he would end up in Norfolk, VA, a mere 3000 miles or so away from here!). Suddenly, I have to figure out how to trim the cats’ nails by myself, haul those 40 pound tubs of cat sand from store to car to garage and a myriad of other things I’ve depended on help from the kids to do.

Lest you’ve forgotten, I tend to shy away from asking help of outsiders, even if those outsiders are friends. Plus, as I descend further into hermit-dom, friends who are close enough to ask for help with cats, doctor visits and the like are few and far between, and many of them are tied up with grand kids. Yet, the real culprit in my latest wandering train of thought is the shoulder pain I’ve been living with for going on three weeks now. Though exercises, homeopathics, a couple of visits to the chiropractor and limited use of prescription muscle relaxers and pain pills has given me back most of my range of motion and functionality, the one thing which is slow to return is a good night’s sleep. Because both my shoulder and arm are involved, it is nearly impossible to sleep in my bed, and then, never for the whole night. Ultimately, I find myself back on the La-Z-Boy sofa, on my back, which is my least favorite sleeping position. Even then, I may need the pills and my heated rice bag in order to find sleep again.

But don’t think it’s all bad news. Either the pain, the effort to eat or the meds are killing my appetite and my weight continues to drop, almost daily. Though I know that part of that is muscle mass which isn’t being supported without regular visits to the gym, some is clearly weight I, in all honesty, need to shed to improve my health and well-being. One thing I do miss is having Heather just beat on my shoulder. The electric massager she reminded my I had is not nearly as effective as a few good, hard whacks on my shoulder. She and her sister both used to enjoy being asked to beat on Mommy when they were younger.

But I digress. I wanted to include some facts and figures about back pain in women of my advanced age, but everything I found talks about the lower back. Even when I got specific and searched for ‘right shoulder pain’ I got very limited information other than that it becomes more common in people over 40. Heck, I could have told them that! (though I was happy to read that it’s left shoulder pain which is connected to heart attacks) Still, this Leap of Faith which was thrust upon me by my son-in-law’s military orders has been a blessing in disguise of sorts. Instead of lying around the house having someone take on those tasks which must be done like laundry, meals, grocery shopping and cat care, I’ve had to find a way to manage the pain, work the sore muscles and get on with my life. Between just moving whether it hurts or not, guzzling Nova’s Shoulder/Arm complex and Injury/Trauma complex every hour or so and doing curls with my 5 pound free weight every couple of hours, the pain has lessened dramatically and my arm is more often numb than painful now.

Inspiration Comes in Many Shapes and Sizes

My next door neighbor is in his 80’s, yet he still keeps himself fit, does his own yard work and can be found in the garage on many days building something-or-other. The lady across the street is also in her 80’s and toured Greece a couple of years ago. She still keeps her own house, though has recently hired a gardener to maintain the lawns. Her kids live nearby so they’re available to help with the heavy lifting, but she’s pretty self-sufficient. And of course, there’s Bonnie who is nearing 90 and has been dancing at all of the clubs I’ve been to and then some for longer than anyone can remember. Sure, she has to modify some of the steps and leaves the faster dances to the 50 and 60 year olds, but we all aspire to her longevity on the dance floor. I am at least as healthy, if not more so than any of these people, so they’re examples help me to suck it up when I want to crawl into my favorite hidey hole and whine about a little pain. Instead, I remind myself (and anyone who will listen) that a few aches and pains remind me that I’m still alive and kicking.

Every time I want to have a pity party about the aches and pains or my less-than-amazing efforts to make a life for myself as a writer, I look around me and see that there are so many things I am accomplishing that I need to have a little more patience with myself as well as being as diligent about pursuing my writing as I am about being self-sufficient and everything will work out perfectly in the end…or at least until a take another leap!

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for both the opportunities I choose and the ones which have been thrust upon me.
2. I am grateful for an improvement in the pain department each day (only needed to take the meds once yesterday).
3. I am grateful for the supportive community of writers, bloggers and freelancers who recognize that there is easily enough for everyone and we are all special and unique.
4. I am grateful for continued messages from the Universe that I’m going in the right direction, even when it feels like I’m standing still.
5. I am grateful for the continued attention of my kitty nurses, despite their displeasure over my abandonment of their favorite night time cuddle spot.
6. I am grateful for abundance: love, life, inspiration, motivation, creativity, encouragement, opportunity, peace, harmony, happiness, prosperity, health and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

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July 6, 2015 20 Things I’ve Accomplished Despite a Gimpy Shoulder

Positivity is Like Marriage: If You Don’t Put the Effort in, It’s Destined to Fail

As I wait impatiently for my shoulder to return to its normal, healthy, burden heaving self, it’s been very easy to sink into the doldrums of self-pity and anxiety over things left undone. The latter is compounded both by my tendency to be a hermit and my reticence over asking for help. Through it all, though, despite a certain languidness brought on, first by the pain and later by the effects of the muscle relaxers and occasional pain pill (I try to use those sparingly), I realized this morning that I’ve actually managed to accomplish more than I realized. In an effort to both inspire myself and raise the level of positive energy in my house, I’m going to share the week’s accomplishments.

  • My cats have not missed a single breakfast of wet food.
  • I did two loads of laundry
  • I’ve made the bed every day
  • I’ve cleaned up the kitchen every night
  • I’ve emptied, cleaned and refilled the litter boxes
  • I’ve scooped the litter boxes (almost) daily
  • I’ve picked up my weekly produce box
  • I’ve used a free weight to exercise my arm several times a day
  • I’ve taken the trash out
  • I’ve gone dancing on all of my regular dance nights
  • I’ve brushed my teeth and taken my vitamins (almost) every day
  • I’ve done my daily meditations
  • I’ve done the monthly work for a client
  • I’ve sent out a couple of pitch letters
  • I’ve run the dishwasher and put the dishes away
  • I’ve done my monthly billing
  • I’ve written at least 2 blog posts per week
  • I’ve learned how to use the mouse with my left hand
  • I cooked myself a yummy 4th of July dinner.
  • I’ve put the laundry away as soon as it was done instead of leaving it in the dryer for daysSomething I’ve learned since trading in my negative attitude several years ago is that just knocking a task off of your To Do list, no matter how lazy, crappy, or otherwise unpositive you might feel raises your vibration. There’s no way around it. You just can’t feel bad about completing a task. That’s part of the reason I keep a To Do list on my computer. That way, I can look back on those days when my mood is dour and say Why, look at that! I made my bed every single day and blogged 4 times! I meditated daily and kept the litter boxes clean! I guess it wasn’t such a bad week after all! I guess this is what they mean by living an attitude of gratitude. When you find enough little things to be grateful for, suddenly, you have a big load of gratitude to boost your mood and make you feel like you’re living a worthwhile life.

    Real Wealth is Never About How Much Money or Stuff You Have

    I’ll be the first to admit that having enough money to pay the bills, fix up the house, take care of the animals and give money to charity is nothing to be sneezed at. That doesn’t mean you can’t make do with what you have, or do something to improve your situation. I’ve spent more time than I care to admit uttering those hateful words “I can’t afford…” only to realize that I’m attracting that lack and de-motivating myself. It’s doing things like going over my list of accomplishments and focusing my attention on what I can do and what I do have that I can stuff those motivation sucking thoughts back into the garbage where they belong.

    Paying Homage to My Leap of Faith

    I took a leap of faith a couple of years ago, trusting in myself to do what was necessary to make something of my writing; to make a career that would make me happy and fulfilled. Allowing myself to even think lack thoughts is to say I have no faith in myself, and if that’s true, then I should be combing the job boards for gainful employment instead of continuing to make writing my sole source of sustenance, both physical and emotional. Do I dare lose faith in myself? Do I dare stop trusting that the Universe is on my side and willing to help me attain my goals? Do I dare give up without giving it the old college try? If I do, I might as well just cash it all in and admit to a life of little worth. I’m not going to do that!

    In life, there are setbacks, and it’s how we respond to those setbacks which determine the person we really are. For me, giving up is not an option. I’ve always been a fighter, even when it wasn’t necessarily in my own best interests. Why change that now? In each and every case, it’s eventually worked out for the best. A door may have closed, but a better one eventually opened, and I moved further along my own, personal continuum. Perhaps the gimpy shoulder was just another reminder that I can either give in or do whatever is necessary to improve my situation. Guess which one I’ll choose.

    My gratitudes today are:
    1. I am grateful for the challenges and setbacks which test my convictions and commitment to my goals.
    2. I am grateful for the ability to turn my attitude around with just a little gratitude and self-congratulations.
    3. I am grateful for my alone time. It gives me an opportunity to work through the crap and figure out what’s really bothering me.
    4. I am grateful for the appetite suppressing tendencies of the muscle relaxers while my activity level has been lower than normal.
    5. I am grateful for abundance: challenges, lessons, setbacks, thinking time, kitty nurses, extra sleep, love, joy, kindness, compassion, friendship, peace, harmony, health, prosperity and philanthropy.

    Blessed Be

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June 5, 2015 One Epiphany Per Customer

‘Twas an Epiphany-free Day and All Through the House…

The Universe saw fit to refrain from shaking my world with any new epiphanies today, for which I am infinitely grateful. In truth, I need time to process the one I received yesterday. As epiphanies go, it was pretty world shaking and both giving it my full attention and acting upon what I’ve learned are going to take some time. Not to mention, I’m working on a computer which is far slower than I’m used to and an internet connection which is slightly better than a 56K modem thanks to Time Warner’s questionable decision to make their Wi-fi service less attractive than their ethernet service. But if my fellow writers can work under less-than-optimal conditions from time to time, who am I to complain? I’m just grateful that I’ve worked out a few kinks with my laptop so I no longer have to depend on my iPad to write my blog posts. It was nice to be able to do so when the laptop was being crotchety and my daughter was without internet service (a situation I can now work around if necessary thanks to the addition of a personal hotspot to my cell phone plan), but for a number of reasons, the iPad is less than optimum when I’m utilizing multiple programs for your reading enjoyment.

I’ve even managed to get my drop box account set up on the laptop after multiple failures (that darned 1980 date again!) which gives me access to pretty much all of the files I use frequently. I admit that I’m still baffled by the fact that a piece of equipment which hadn’t even been invented in 1980 found a way to make itself believe that was the current year. Talk about back to the future!

But all’s well that ends well. I enjoyed a day of sun and The Band Perry with my daughter, newly returned son-in-law and some of their friends. Tomorrow, we’ll belatedly celebrate my son-in-law’s January birthday which he missed while he was deployed in the Middle East. I have a feeling this year will see us making up for all of the holidays and special occasions he missed during his 9 1/2 month deployment. There are worse ways to spend a year.

Before I start babbling from a combination of sleep deprivation and a little too much sun, I will leave you with my gratitudes.
1. I am grateful that our sailor is home safe and sound.
2. I am grateful that epiphanies are disbursed frugally as they are extremely rich and filling.
3. I am grateful I can spend time with my daughter and son-in-law. They make the simplest things fun and interesting.
4. I am grateful for a soft place to lay my weary head.
5. I am grateful for abundance: love, family, health, happiness, joy, harmony, peace, prosperity and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

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May 22, 2015 Sticking With the Program

Allowing for Flexibility

Day 1 of a programmed life for productivity went fairly well, all things considered. Despite the fact that I was inexplicably exhausted most of the day, I still managed to get to the gym, run errands, do some neglected chores and dance until after 11. Then I cut myself some slack and moved the one uncompleted task to tomorrow.

Aside from the soreness of dancing for two nights in a row and going to the gym twice this week, I’m feeling pretty good. Even better, I exceeded my daily goal of 10,000 steps, much to my surprise! The real test, though, is to see if I get the pitching and blog writing I’ve scheduled done. Those and the small amount of accounting work I have are really my bread and butter.

I’m keeping my promise to write something every day, even if it’s just a blog post, but I’m fading fast, so this one is going to be very short.

My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for the muscle pains that tell me I’m getting back on track.
2. I am grateful for the inspiration I get from others who have been where I am now.
3. I am grateful for an extra night of dancing.
4. I am grateful an unexpected visit with a friend.
5. I am grateful for abundance: love, health, happiness, joy, productivity, success, challenges met and overcome, harmony, peace, prosperity and philanthropy.

Blessed Be

January 23, 2015 And the beat goes on

The last few days have brought a new dynamic, not only to my writing but to my life as well

As those who follow me regularly know, I officially became an Accelerated Copywriting dropout this month. I hoped it would shake things loose and it has, but not in quite the manner I’d expected. However, if I learned one thing from my A.R.T teacher, it was to set my intentions with broad strokes and allow the Universe to fill in the details

In the meantime, I got back to work on my second NaNoWriMo effort tentatively titled “A Dubious Gift”.   But this was only the beginning of how the Universe began to lead me, step by step, to start living like a Writer.

An opportunity to join a local critique group showed up on my list of Meetups, so of course, I joined.  I also ran across a Facebook group called Insecure Writers Support Group or IWSG for short.  I signed up for that too, little knowing that I would then be matched up with three other writers to help  each other reach that Writer’s Holy Grail, publication.  I was fortunate enough to be matched with three amazing ladies who all seem to be on the same page.  We created our own group and plan to do brainstorming and share both struggles and triumphs along the way.  But the best part is, I shook the mothballs off of my 2013 NaNoWriMo effort for their reading and critiquing enjoyment ( though I expect that my ‘child’ will be taken apart quite drastically before this is over.  But at least it will become more than a box of pages for Scrappy Doo to rest his scrawny self on when the hard, unforgiving wood of the shelf beneath my office window ceases to meet his exacting standards for feline comfort.

Meanwhile, in other news, my daughter who has been the driving force, not only behind the original inception of my blog but also my first NaNoWriMo has finally agreed to start her own blog which we’ve agreed to associate with this one.  So stay tuned to this location for the launch of Heather’s Culinary Adventure, a blog filled with recipes and lessons learned as she travels the road to a degree in Culinary Arts.

All in all, through communications glitches (I lost about 75% of this post and had to start over), travel, business requirements and just the day to day stuff we all have to do as part of being human adults, the process of reinventing myself from that initial leap of faith continues.  In fact, that one significant step has led to more steps outside of that once familiar place called my comfort zone until, lo and behold, that place has expanded beyond anything I could have imagined, much less recognized a year or so ago.  I would venture to say that it was one small step for my Human self and one giant leap for my Spiritual, Divine self.

My gratitudes tonight are:

1. I am grrateful for the people who encouraged me to take that initial step.

2. I am grateful for the opportunities the Universe keeps placing in my path.

3. I am grateful for the people I’m meeting along the way on my new journey.

4. I am grateful for my daughter who has been so very supportive and uncritical as I find out who I need to be on this new journey.  She thinks I don’t appreciate it, but I do, more than she realizes.

5. I am grateful for abundance: love, sharing, worig, writing, people, places, things, ideas, new adventures, health, harmony, peace, happingess and prosperity.


Blessed Be


December 29, 2014 Clearing my plate

Reposting for the non-nocturnal.

December 29, 2014 Clearing my plate.

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