Gearing up to write 50,000 words in a month.
In preparation for NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writers’ Month for the uninitiated), I purchased a package containing webinars, ebooks and print books designed to help me actually do a little bit of plot development instead of just jumping in blindly like I did last year. It doesn’t mean I won’t continue to sit down, shut my brain off and let the story flow as it wishes, but I thought a few tools might help bring down the number of rewrites this one will require compared to last year’s effort.
I watched one of the webinars and started to watch another, but it was all I could do to sit through 15 minutes of it. I’m not sure if it was the presenter’s style or how she arranged the material, but I got stuck on it as surely as I’ve been stuck on the assignment for my AWAI Accelerated Copywriting course.
As with the copywriting course, I came to the conclusion that I needed to focus on the things which did resonate and avoid wasting time on the things which didn’t. So I poked around in the items I’d downloaded from the site (after paying my fee, of course) and did, indeed, find a gem. I’ll be spending quite a little time with the 280 page ebook, but was able to send it to my iPad so it will, at least, be portable.
The next week looks to be a rather busy one, what with the writing challenge beginning next Saturday, a trip to my daughter’s on Friday night (return date, pending), and getting ready to be an educated voter a week from Tuesday. Somewhere in there will also be my daily blog post (even when UBC comes to an end), trips to the gym (I’m becoming rather attached to those visits, believe it or not) and another batch of something healthy once I get my weekly Harvest Box.
Did I mention a guest blog post or two in the mix? One thing is certain. I will soon be very grateful for the pre-measured meals stacking up nicely in my refrigerator and freezer. My recent foray into less healthy eating with a dinner of sushi and tempura is making me rudely aware that my stomach is no longer happy with fried or sauce filled foods. (strange gurglings and rumblings are, even now, emitting from what should be my peaceful center, alerting me to the unhappiness of my innards.)
In this time of preparation, I am thrown, once more, back to October of last year when, with the help of my Ascension Resonance Training class, I made the decision to leap faithfully to my fate, also known as my true calling. Though I’m still not completely clear on what that calling will ultimately entail, writing and learning about writing is definitely high on the list of things I can’t help but do.
This last year has surely been one of fits and starts, a lot of sitting around trying to figure myself out, and some major changes in lifestyle, eating and health habits. I’ve fought some battles, come close to giving in to frustration, even, for a moment or two, considered going back to accounting where I knew I could have a steady income. But always, there was something which whispered in my ear, saying: “Stick with it. You’ve got this. It might be taking longer than you’d planned, but you’re still ok. You’re learning to live differently as well as in your truth, and that will take time. But don’t give up on yourself!”
That little voice has never steered me wrong, except when I’ve ignored it. So despite the fact that I’m not yet on the road to a six figure income as a copywriter, and my first novel is still a long way from publication and my website has not been launched because I haven’t a clear picture of what I want it to say…it’s all part of my process. I’ve learned a lot this year, and am definitely not the person I was a year ago, nor will I be the person I am now in another year.
You have to have Faith, even when it doesn’t look like you have a good reason.
Finding my true path, following my heart’s desire took an enormous leap of faith. I stepped off into something which, from where I stood, gave me no guarantees of supporting me into my dotage. But as I made the decision, more and more signs came to assure me that I was making the right decision; the decision that meant I would have at least one less regret years in the future.
Sure, I’m learning that there is a great deal more to being a writer than simply writing. Sure, I’ve yet to earn a dime doing what I love, but so what? I’m doing what I love, and I’m still managing to keep a roof over my head and food in my cats’ dishes. I’m taking better care of me than I ever have, and even if it’s only a blog post, I’m writing every single day.
Something else I’ve always enjoyed is learning. I’m getting ample opportunity right now to expand my education. Whether it’s an online class or reference material or research for my latest effort, it’s all a learning experience for me. In fact, I’ve even had the opportunity to learn what not to do, and that is always useful as well.
The sooner we learn that Life, itself is a learning experience, the more we will get out of the trip.
Part of the reason I was so unhappy in the last year or so of my old job was that I didn’t have enough left to learn and explore, at least that made me want to get up in the morning and get to it. I had, for all intents and purposes, gone about as far as I was going to go in the position, and, I realize now, I had been mentally ready to move on for quite awhile. But I was in that rut where the job pays reasonably well, I was reasonably stable and, occasionally even got to do something which challenged my brain. I also wasn’t anxious to stay in the corporate world, and where I was only loosely fit that label.
For the first time in my life, when I hit that particular wall, external forces did not conspire to kick me in the butt and move me out of my rut. With the support of a few friends, I did it myself. The only thing I can say is that I must have been ready to make this huge shift and to simplify my lifestyle at the same time to accommodate the learning curve which would come as a result.
Am I any closer to supporting myself with my dream, my writing? I’d like to think so. Will it matter if it takes some more time? Not in the overall scheme of things. My contemporaries might be taking trips to Europe right now while I’m home banging on the keyboard and filling my head with more knowledge and skills, but I’m right where I need to be. I spend a few days each month with my daughter, and am enjoying exploring her new city. But I also love the freedom of my life to do for myself and follow a regular exercise routine, to meditate daily and work with the cats gathered around me. I believe that as I become ready for more, I will move into a position where I’ll find exactly what I need.
And that, my friends, is what taking a leap of faith is all about. Believing in yourself, first and foremost, but also believing that the resources you need will align themselves with your trajectory at the time they are required. As long as I hold that Faith, the Laws of Attraction never fail me.
My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful to the women who encouraged me to take the leap of faith that put me where I am today.
2. I am grateful for my simplified, me-central lifestyle.
3. I am grateful for the lessons I’m learning and the progress I’m making.
4. I am grateful to be following my dream, and learning more about what it truly is as I go.
5. I am grateful to be on this grand adventure called life.
6. I am grateful for abundance: freedom, love, adventure, learning, exploring, health, harmony, peace, comedy, friendship and prosperity.